So in 3 to 4 weeks I’m ending it just have to do a test run then gain the balls to just end it. I don’t give a fuck or a rats are anymore. Not even sure why I was born the only sucky thing is my family are going to have to bury me with no photo or nothing. I’m over family and parents. They only give a shit about themselves and haven’t once begun to understand mental illness. Funny thing is its going to have to be a burden to bury me or cremate me for my family. Cold heartless family.
Well 3-4weeks then I go bye bye. Truth is they’re not going to miss me anyway. Selfish bastards. My parants could of helped me out even if it was once just once. But no so its going to be tough on them much more costly burying someone than what all I asked for. Can’t believe it no more punishment. Just have to end it all so I can be free from this bullshit cold family.
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Well, I can’talk imagine how bad is your situation because a lot of my relatives do have mental illness and my father even has depression. So… Theyou understand me a little better but still it’seems pretty hard. I can try helping. Do you wanna chat someday?
Thanks for the reply but I don’t see any hope I’ve been suicidal for a while and have just bought the means to be able to do it I think. Just have to buy a carbon monoxide meter so not to screw up.
Fuck your parents, it’s better to leave them, and giving not news, never. They’ll regret that they did to you if you leave them, very far, with no news.
Dealing with schizophrenia is no doubt difficult let alone dealing with it yourself. I only have a rudimentary understanding of it but from what I can see, it’s tough. To make things more tough, I believe you are unable to be medicated as you are part of the group that medication does not have any effect but I could be mistaken. My heart goes out to you and I wish I could be there to help you but imagination me being there…
I know a little bit longer what you speak however about family not wanting to understand mental illness… just a little bit.
I want you to hang on… I really really do. I also understand where you’re coming from on the mental illness front…. I don’t have schizophrenia though but I’m confident that I have something…. **something** but I digress.
With everything said I support your right to choose your destiny. I’ve read your posts… I know you’ve thought about your fate for a long time.
I wish you peace Schiz018.