Lately my aunts been telling me i do or did things yeti have no memory of it, the other day she finally lost it and said i was just fucked up in the head and said she had to walk oug to resist beating the shit out of me. Thats all i remember but i woke up in the middke of the night my arm hurting and by the looks of it i stabbed myself with scissors. The next day i noticed the skin around it turning green, is that bruising from the impact or should i be worried, idk i just didnt know where else to ask.
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The things you do are so bad that she has to react so badly?
What might be causing that? Did you ever talked to someone about it? It sounds terrifying to go through that.
Green…?
Might be infected. You probably need to get it checked.
Hi Emmy,
We’ve spoken on here before. How are your battles with substances coming along? Are you forgetting things due to taking anything? Sometimes I take a benzo and lose track of an entire day… My hope is that you’re clean, but no judgement from me. I’m still not, though I AM seeking treatment.
Also, due to using a drug so toxic as methamphetamine, we’ve lost a bit of our retention capacity. This is normal. I don’t think you should feel so bad about forgetting things. The drugs eventually take their toll… You need to see a doctor about the arm, but you may also want to ask about something to help re-balance your serotonergic and dopaminergic receptors. I’m currently using a second generation atypical anti-psychotic with an SSRI with decent results. Or, at least it keeps me from getting any sort of “dope rush” and or psychosis.
Magnesium, D3, l-tyrosene (GABA), and mucuna pruriens would be a good place to start if you’re not already taking anything to help your depression. I’m not a doctor, and am in no way giving you medical advice. I’m just still pulling for you. Please see a doctor asap.
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