I’m spending the last few days relaxing and writing notes to all my family. I know it might seem crazy because I’m cheerful about dying at 27 years old. I just feel like I’ve experienced all I’ve wanted/needed to experience from this life. It’s time for me to go. It might seem strange to have an upbeat attitude about offing yourself, but maybe that will leave behind a peaceful solution to those in my life who are living stressfully. I bought a bag of charcoal and I’m waiting for the day when my parents and brother aren’t in the house and I’m going to burn the charcoal outside. Then I’m going to take it in me and my brother’s bathroom. I’m going to block the air vent and the closed door with towels and let the charcoal continue to burn. Hopefully, that will be enough closed space to allow carbon monoxide to form and hopefully make me die in a sleepy way? What are your thoughts about this? I’m looking forward to it! 🙂
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Idk sounds prone to failure. You would need decent amount of charcoal. I’d combine it with a nervous system depressant like alcohol or benzos or opiates to reduce your breathing. Sounds like a lot of work? Lighters and matches and notes and bags of charcoal and towels and crying. I would wait and week and if you still feel that way tomorrow is always just a day away.
Agree that it sounds like a possible failure. The upbeat attitude is not weird tho, been there, i’d say it’s the relief of knowing that the pain will end, but really… give it some thought. I might use the argument that at 27 you could still have many things to look forward, but more than anything, carbon monoxide is more likely to give you long term issues than kill you.
Fair enough I guess. I’ve no idea wrt the charcoal but it does sound flawed. I’ll spare you the why. However I completely understand the bit about being content with life and knowing when your time has come. What about the inevitable situation of your brother etc finding you? Perhaps reconsider the impact on those who care about you (how they find you) and their reaction to it. Is there a better way?!
Ehh that bag of charcoal idea doesn’t sound like it’s gonna work and be very very painful to beeathe in. Sorry, I understand your excitement though, I got a plan for myself but I have two possible methods, both of which I can’t afford. I’ll try to obtain the more peaceful method when I got my money saved up, if not than well, I’ll have to do something quick but far more violent.
Wont u choke to death tho ? Wut will sleeping pills do
I personally found some peace with the idea of offing myself so I get that. I don’t foresee myself lasting much longer but will see…. going to see therapist and so on.
No different than everyone else, might want to rethink things on the method front. I won’t go into details but as wndozh8er pointed out, the amount of charcoal might be an issue.
Sleeping pills are available that easily.
I bought a pretty big bag of charcoal from Amazon. So I definitely have enough. But I don’t have a grill to burn it on. But I don’t think that’ gonna be much of an issue. I just want to find a small enough space that has the least amount of air. I don’t have a car so I will definitely have to use the bathroom in my parents’ house. And you all don’t know my family. They want me to die, they’re just letting me know in the least obvious ways.
I’m not an expert or anything so I can’t exactly say if your plan will work or not. What I can say is, being happy about death is wonderful. It means you’re leaving with no regrets or loose threads.