When you come to think of those hard times you’ve been through you would think that you wouldn’t want it to happen again. Even though i have a boyfriend I know that i can’t lean on him when i’m upset or depressed because whats the point in bringing him down as well as myself… there is no point just because i have a fucked up life doesn’t mean i should fuck up anyone else’s and even though it pains me to write on here expressing my feelings i know that others have been feeling the same way as i have been and still am. Don’t get me wrong i love my boyfriend to bits however i just feel like he could do way better then me… i’m a model yet i feel like i don’t belong because everyone is so beautiful there and yet they are the most nicest people i could ever meet. My boyfriend could do way better then me it still surprises me that his with me to this day even when i’m depressed. Please anyone out there just tell me whether i should end my life now or should i fake my happiness… I know in my previous status i said that everyone has a happiness but even i myself haven’t found it however i have my best friend and my boyfriend to thank for they are the reason i am still breathing to this day.