not sure where to start….

I guess I am writing this for everyone else out there who understands what I’ve gone through. To know you aren’t alone nor are you ever alone no matter how much you may feel that way its not true. I have been battling depression and suicidal tendencies since I was 8 years old. From age 9 to 17 I was raped and molested by my friends father. He is in jail now, but it really messed me up. I started cutting starving binging and purging because i needed to control something again because of how much I had lost. I didn’t know what else to do. I was so scared and he said he would kill me if I said anything so I believed him. I didn’t want to take the chance that he would kill me. I honestly could say I have had my set backs recently I was in recovery for a few months. that didn’t last long, I slipped up and broke again. I was put in several physically and emotionally abusive relationships and I think ill always have that fear of being abused like that again. I am working through it. but I finally realized that I am not alone. And neither are you. So please its okay to ask for help there is nothing wrong with that. You will always have someone who has your back never ever forget that.