You never let me do anything. You “said” you always wanted me to “grow as a person” but whenever I didn’t do exactly what you wanted, you hit me. You starved me for days without food, and called me names nobody should ever be called. You measured love by success and trophies, and made sure to cover up all my bruises before a competition. You stole my glory from me. My victories were never MY victories, whenever you talked to admiring parents, they became YOUR victories that I had gained because of you. While enduring this, the flute became my only friend. Well you know what? I don’t want these trophies. Throw away all the certificates of my performances at Carnegie Hall, melt the trophies that I earned when I came out as first place in the National Chinese Music Competition. I’d throw away all this “success” just for normal parents and a normal life. But I still have to thank you guys for teaching me a lesson I won’t forget. I may not have learnt a lot, but I’ve learnt how to NEVER treat my children.
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I’m Indian, and I can understand what you’re going through. I wrote a similar reply a few days back to someone who is facing and has faced a similar plight as yours. What I go through is not this severe, but all I can say is don’t do anything which you cannot undo. If you feel lonely or if you feel you don’t have a friend who does not understand your sufferings, you can contact me. You resorted to the flute for company, and it became your best companion. What are your dreams right now? Have you thought of ways how to fulfill them? If your parents stand in the way, you have to take a stand for yourself. Be self-centred. Everyone is. And as for your problems, they won’t be forever. Trust me. 🙂
Wow. Sorry to hear about this treatment. Rough man
It may sound like a consolation prize, but that’s a valuable lesson. There are many parents who were abused as children and then continue the cycle when they have children. Ending that cycle might bring happiness to the next generation, and perhaps make a better world.
If anything, the lesson i got from my parents is that i’ll never have children (i can’t, but if i could i wouldn’t). In a way, you did grow as a person tho, since you know better than repeating the same mistake. Not that it helps much, but your achievements are yours and you should be proud about them, even if your parents tried to cling on to them.