I know a lot of talented people. I’m in junior high, and I already know people who qualify to teach piano, get first place in provincial level athletics, got perfect on their advanced harmony exams, or even first in a nation-wide mathematics competition. Everyone else I know is blessed with some kind of glorious, useful talent. Something that is measurable in levels or ribbons. I get stuck with art. I used to be so proud of my artwork, that I could actually create something that others could enjoy. At the age of 12, I had already started doing commissions and auctions on DeviantArt. I was so pleased with myself. It was one of the last things I actually liked doing. But now I realize it’s stupid. Art is useless and immeasurable. I once found that endearing, as it caused me to strive to do better and better. But none of that matter to parents who live to compare you to their friends children. There are no levels in art, and art competitions are too easy to win. They never care to see my digital paintings or small animations I put together. They don’t even like any of my traditional drawings. If I were as proficient in Math or Science as I am in Art, maybe my parents would finally love me. Does anyone else have a similar issue? I would love to talk to you.
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Had this issue when i was younger, and i screwed up pretty badly by listening to others opinion and trying top fulfill expectations that i didn’t really care about. While it’s true that you do have to make sure you can get a decent living, that doesn’t mean that you should put aside what you love doing just because others (even family) don’t consider it to be important.
In the end you are going to live your life, not your family. If you enjoy your art then keep at it, and if you don’t see it as a viable way of living, complement it with something else that you like (or at least can endure), because having a life of just efficiency and obligations are is bound to make you unsatisfied on the long run. If you think about it, it’s likely that those people that you mention enjoy the things they do a hell of a lot more than the ribbons, and that in turn, makes them want to be better at it.
It can really break a person when they realize that they might not be useful. I sucked at just about everything in life except music. I would win national and international awards – but they had no use. Music isn’t like math where you can measure if something is right or wrong. Everything else I was just ‘good’ at, but I was nothing special, and it sucks being “good” at everything but not “great” in anything. Anyways, feel free to contact me at bloodsacrifice@hotmail.com , and I’d love to see your artwork on Deviantart. I love anime. Anime is love. Anime is life.
Yes, I am so over people who like to measure and compare you. They never going to or want to understand me.
And your post is something I related to once, but I am over it. It makes me sad to read it, like experiencing being unwanted again.
You are good as you are although you can always improve your skills at math/science if you’d like to. It’s a matter of wish. Talent is not the only thing that helps to succeed. You should determine what you want and follow your decision. Stay resilient and eventually you will achieve your goals. Speaking about art, it’s unfathomable for creation is art. Math is art as well. It has no limits (supposedly) so you can go on and on exploring, striving, enjoying. And no, art is not useless. It imbues our existence with color of life. Your art affects people and changes them. It’s unfortunate your parents aren’t capable of appreciation of you.