Clouds

Just those typical brain clouds again, swirling around, filled with negativity, hopelessness, death. I’m fantasizing about something I shouldn’t be but I just can’t help it. It’s not about beating my thoughts anymore, I’ve come to the conclusion that they are simply just there, and they will stay there most likely. It’s almost a peaceful feeling knowing that something is out of your control and you just have to accept it. They come and go, I try not to dwell on them but there are those times where I am just consumed. That is when I feel the most lost, when I am a victim of my own psychology. I’ve figured out the best way to combat such things is to try and be as proactive as you can. Fill your life the best you can with what makes you happy, what is pleasurable to you. That, in my opinion, is the point of life. To be happy in general. No that doesn’t mean you have to have a million dollars and an awesome well paying job, happiness is your own personalized definition of what that means to you and what it consists of in your life. You can own the biggest home, but if the right people aren’t in it, it is worthless.