Things are not going well in my relationship with my partner. After 7 years, seems he is done with me, not that he says that. But how else can I interpret his behaviour. It terrifies me. And I feel so hurt and used. I gave so much and didn’t get nearly as much.
I’ve been so sad. The other day I was reviewing in detail how I would kill myself, and it made me more upset and sadder somehow. Some part of me was fighting against it, now that I felt I was about ready to go through with it, nothing external holding me back anymore, no one who loved and needed me anymore, be it human or feline. Just no one. I’m so alone. Thought I had a friend forever. I have no other friends, no good at making friends. Life has been hell. I’ve tried so hard, and all for nothing, it seems.