Anyone else feel guilt knowing what you’re going to do to others? Of course most people aren’t backed into a corner like I am… but it’s hitting me a little bit here and a little bit there.
- One of my bosses had a friend die yesterday. With my death coming soon, I feel bad for inevitably making her cry.
- For everyone at my jobs, for letting them down, being such a disappointment and a waste of time, money, energy, training and resources. I’m sorry I can’t go on being homeless.
- My kid. Yes, I have one out there who will be 17 next month. It’s her decision after she’s 18 if she wants to try to find me, but I just feel kind of sad I never knew her or saw her face beyond birth.
- Connected to the 2nd one, the ripple effect. I wish I hadn’t gotten so involved in nonprofits and made my face and known to so many. I hope it doesn’t negatively affect the operations of either NFP I worked for….