Can you find were the empty beer cans are? yesterday I was craving alcohol and couldn’t sleep because of it. Around 3 pm I took a shower, dressed real nice, got me a bag of water and told my aunt that I was going to take a walk. Knowing I’m an alcoholic, she didn’t bring up any questions to my surprise! I walked a mile to the store, even anxiety couldn’t stop me! I got 12 cans of bud light because they were out of the good shit (natural ice). I carried about 30 pounds of water and beer back to my house. The hardest part was climbing a quarter mile up to my house (a very steep road) while carrying the cans of beer and water. Once I got inside I was sweating like a pig and breathing like I ran a marathon! I hid my beer right away and walked up stairs. Carla was “very proud of me for facing my fears and getting out of the house” once again I was shocked that she didn’t question that I got alcohol.
Around 3 am I woke up and made sure everyone was alseep. Than I silently drank the 12 pack of bud light (wish it was stronger). Than I hid all the beer bottles in my panels of my ceiling in the basement. I had a lot of fun tonight! Awesome thing about it is that I’m gonna get to drink Monday because Carla didn’t know I drink today.
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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wndozh8er,
Good trick! but one day the roof we cave in and thousands of beer cans we come crashing down!!! and make one hell of a noise! and there you will be buired in beer cans! then try to explain that one! 🙂
Ha I only got 12 up there. When I do it again I’ll put the old ones discreetly in the trash can
http://youtu.be/74TFS8r_SMI How I felt when I got away with it!
Except for I was alone lol
I ain’t got much but a talent for charisma and manipulation (only when it comes to getting what I need). When Carla was in one of our group meetings even she noticed that I was doing a better job than the councilor. I was sitting next to the councilor, validating people when she wasn’t. No wonder the people at the psyche ward thinks I should get a blog and start my own counceling business. I ain’t gonna do thst but I am working on my social and political manifesto -FORGING A NEW RENAISSANCE: THE OFFICIAL MANIFESTO OF THE NATIONAL ACTIONIST MOVEMENT. the book is going to cover a whole bunch of stuff, euthanasia, which is under my bioethics agenda, is a small but very important part of it. I don’t believe in left, right, center politics. I see my ideology in the 4th dimension I’d that makes sense. I wanna go beyond and help change the world.
One thing that I did realize from the psyche ward, is that I do have charisma and can control an entire room of people, including the councilor herself. She had nothing but great things to say about me. I hid from the world for so long that I forgot who I was or didn’t realize my potential. Yes I’m a depressive alcoholic, but now I got my ambition back. I been re teaching myself to be more assertive, confident. Before I was passive and weak. I refuse to ever be that way again.
wndozh8er,
I’ll drink to that!!!! as a matter of fact it’s 5am i’m late! i’ll go pour a few shots of vodka right now in honor of your victory!!!!
Dang I wish I could have some! That shit is good, especially with a nice Pepsi chaser
I put one empty beer bottle in each panel haha
After isolating myself for about 10 years, except for when I was with my far away sweetheart, I was shocked thst I control an entire room of people in the psyche ward, even the councilor. My aim was not for control, but that I genuinely cared about them and craved that connection to others
@Wndozh8er I’m really glad you found your mojo again and I do believe you are a special and interesting person (thought I don’t know you) but I can sense it from you witty writings. Cheers!!!
Thank you so much! Your an awesome person and that compliment means a lot to me. I gotta keep training myself to keep up my mojo. I don’t want to be in that dark place again. I gotta fight everyday to keep on track.
Have you been a hikikomori/reclusive for 10 years?
Actually since 2004 except the last part of 2006, a month in 2007. I was still reclusive when I lived with my far away sweetheart.