Hello, whoever uses this site.
A few years ago, I used to post here. Sometimes quite regularly. I’m sat by myself in an empty room, and something possessed me to re-read all my old posts and I thought, why not update my life a little. I’m sure all the people who used this site when I did are gone, maybe even dead. But I do hope that there are still people here.
It’s been almost 2 years and one of the main changes in myself, is that I am appalling at explaining my feelings and emotions now. I am slightly jealous of my old selfs ability to write. It makes me realise that although I thought I was useless, I had a talent that has gone to waste. It upsets me greatly.
I don’t really know what else to say. My mind has become a lot less valuable and finds it challenging to do stuff like this now.
Anyway, I would be happy if someone left a comment. I’d like to know what sort of people use this site now.
Thanks for reading, if anyone does.
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What was your old screen name i just recently came back though i plan on killing myself today lol
I’ve always had the same name. I don’t know if there’s anything I can say to change your mind but I would try and push it a few more days. I always thought, if you can push yourself to live through one more day, you should. Even if it’s a shit day.
I found this site a week ago. I have been suicidal for the first time in my life three months ago. I know what you are saying about being aware of your problem on decline and not being able to express yourself. I too am jealous of my old self.
Do you have a constant fantasy of a time machine? I wish so much to go back in time. Time is evil
If only that were possible I wish there was someway I could go back and make my old self realise my potential, also give myself more knowledge on other things too, because I did have to learn the hard way.
Ive pushed it along far enough like years along like literally half of my life has been spent pushing this along. I cant accept my incompetence. I turn 28 in 2 weeks last year i was doing the same thing (trying to hang myself around my bday) then at least i had a job and a place to stay and a friend who i loved. I lived to make my life worse. I ended up changing my screen name idk. Sorry for hijacking your post. I hope your life has improved and i hope it gets better. Sorry you’re back here
I understand. I hope that something changes for you, or something makes you re-think, but I know how hard it can be and I’m sorry that’s it gotten so bad for you. I wish you well.
I am new here. I find a nice community here where there are unfortunately too many people still wanting to kill themselves. I wanted to do that myself 1 year and 6 months ago after I got sick. But I continuted to live no matter how hellish my life has become. And things generally got worse.
I’ve passed through hell but I always find reasons to live. I don’t think that suicide gives you a better life in the afterlife. Chances are that you will continue to suffer. It’s interesting though that death is many times associated with peace.
It’s nice to know that there’s someone here to help people realise that suicide isn’t the answer. A few years ago this site was a very dark place. No one was there to prevent people from killing themselves. There were some who tried, but we’re outnumbered by people who thought death was freedom.
The site has always been a great place to understand and learn more about the emotions that come with being suicidal.
Thank you for commenting.
Hi!
I like your user name : LivingQuietly. It gives me hope of a quiet and pleasant life. This is what I’ve done in the last year: living quietly and trying to find reasons to live in daily life. One year and 6 months ago I would do nothing, just laying in my bed and being suicidal. I would enjoy nothing. In the last time, I started enjoying things again no matter how little. I like smoking my cigarette and sitting on my old chair in the yard. I enjoy watching horror movies, reading a book.
And I am glad that I’m alive. Suicide seems not to be the answer for me.
You say that this site was a dark place years ago. It seems to me that it’s still very dark. There are topics on suicide everywhere. I don’t want to judge anyone though.
“I don’t think that suicide gives you a better life in the afterlife. Chances are that you will continue to suffer.” Now this is what scares me the most :/ 🙁