My life sucks… My mother died last year before christmas and now nothing is the same. I thought that my life was already horrible, but after her death it was fucking hell. My father acts and treats me as if im the one to blame and im less of a daughter somehow even though I was the only one to take care of her when she was still alive, he constantly makes fun of
my weight and compares me to my little sister, my older bros and sis dont give my little sis and I some damn time to talk and
they treat us like shit, my boyfriend abandoned me when I
needed him the most and still doesnt understand me at all but
says he loves me but doesnt know what love is, my so called best friend decided she was done because of me standing up for myself against some rude comments and opinions of hers and she cyberbullied me on facebook.
I have been bullied about my weight, I am always underestimated, I have no friends, ive been cyberbullied countless of times by ppl that i thought i trusted, no family my little sister and I can count on , I am jobless, homeless, and beginning to lose my faith in God..
Im sorry im a failure and I cant hold on for too long, if I disappeared maybe things will be better. No one truly loves me and wants to be my friend… so now I wait until its the right time to kill myself tonight..
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There is always hope for those who truly want to change their life!
I can’t say I know how you feel, but I experienced something like it. It will only make you stronger. I know what other’s say about our well being hurts a lot. You do mean a lot to somebody. I know how it feels to have little or no friends. If it does mean anything to you. I’m here if you need me.
Losing a parent is super damaging. Your dad is being a dick cause he’s in pain. People are assholes. As absurd as it sounds I don’t think God has anything to do with this.
Calling yourself a failure is like bullying yourself. Don’t be as dickish as the dicks that dick you over. You are fine just being who you are. Take that and hold it next to your heart right along side of the memories of your mom. Breathe.
Keep breathing.
Losing a parent is really rough. Especially at a young age. The younger a person is when they lose a parent the more it hurts usually. I don’t know your age but by your screen name here I would guess you are 21. (but im not sure of course)
Well your mom passed away that is rough and I am sorry for your loss. But the truth about life is that life sometimes throws us obstacles that we are faced with and that is just the way it goes.
Life is not always easy but
What matters…. is How You Choose to React to those obstacles.
How you react to what happens to you in your life determines how things are going to
go for you.
Your mom is passed away that is something you have to learn to deal with. Its not Gods wrath against you its Not something you deserved because you are bad or anything like that AT ALL.
Not at all.. and you have to know that and believe it. Its just something that happened but now you have to learn to deal with that and deal with the other issues in your life as well but suicide is not the answer. You will get through this trust me. Things will get better
Your mom passing away Its just a circumstance that happened and now you have to carry on as best as you can an believe you can still have a great life….because you CAN.
First off… I think you should confront your father. Tell him that you are “disappointed in the way he has been treating you and your younger sister.” Its not your fault your mom died. If he cant see that then he is OUT OF LINE and needs to be told so. Just tell him that.
Also tell him that you don’t like his comments about your weight and that all of that kind of treatment is “uncalled for.” If you address these issues with him I bet he will change. Some people carry on because of their own pain and snap at others but once somebody speaks up about it all they often will stop and even apologize. He might not realize how much pain he has caused you buy these words and remarks that is why you need to tell him and wake him up.
He needs to be confronted and I think you should do this.
You should also talk to your dad about your older siblings > that they are not being nice to you and your younger sister and that its “not right” and “not fair” and that it needs to Stop.
You have to stick up for yourself and speak up for yourself. Again your dad probably doesn’t even understand the pain he is causing you and others… that’s why you have to speak up.
So dont go and harm yourself. Rather put your energy to confronting these issues and in trying to make them better for yourself and for your younger sister. She needs you to help with this too because she is being effected negatively too. You have to o this for you and for your younger sister.
let us know how you are doing with this!