I don’t know what the right answer is here, but you can’t help who you love. You think about you… Not whether you’re good enough or bad for another person… Just think about what you need. X
If you’re feeling really lost so bad that you feel liek screaming, the best thing to do is stop where you’re at, calm down, take a deep breath, and slow down.
Broken hearts can heal. It’s a tough proccess but it doesn’t always have to mean the end.
Why would you say people have an expiration date for their love to you?
Love is a complicated, deep feeling. It doesn’t just expire.
Love by itself is hard to define, predict or generalize like that, because it means a lot of different things to different people.
Love might weaken over time, or it might be hard for a person to show, it might be going slow or fast or even changing in between – even if it seems like it’s gone or ‘expired’, it doesn’t always mean it is.
Feelings change, people change, things change. Love can change, in a way, but love is a strong feeling that doesn’t just disappear.
Even in case it does fade away, there’s always a chance it can be re-ignited.
It’s a complicated topic, complicated feeling to understand and explain.
Even if you lost sight of your dreams for now, your hope feels like it’s dying, and you’re feeling completely lost and shattered, just try and take a moment.
You’ll pick up the pieces and everything will slowly heal again.
So the weirdest thing just happened because this random hippie lady popped up and asked me “do you like gemstones”?
I said yes (lol ummm…maybe that’s obvious, just look at me) and she gave me this beautiful green agate.
She just gave it to you? I love it when strangers do things like that. A few weeks ago I was out somewhere and a woman working there told me where I could get something. I said thanks, and only a minute later she went to another room and got it for me. I was ill and hurting like hell, I think she could tell… She got me a drink too, it was so sweet. Means a lot to me when complete strangers go out of their way for you.
That’s so sweet. Means a lot to me too… Yes, she did. I wonder why. Funny, I’m not wearing jewelry today and I’m wearing pants and “boring” clothes. I usually wear some gemstones and summer dresses, my hair is always down… I definitely look like someone that loves nature. And today that I’m not looking like who I am this lady shows up and gives me a gemstone.
I still want to scream. I wish I could scream like crazy here where I am, but I can’t. My soul is screaming at the top of my lungs though.
The expiration date thing is real, unfortunately.
I know I’m not making much sense right now, sorry for that. I appreciate your advice and help. I guess I’m typing whatever comes to my heart. I want my heart to show as it is here, I want my words to be unfiltered.
I’m trying not to think about how horrible my situation is with all my pain, my past and the never ending hopelessness and lack of interest in living. I need to hold on though, but I don’t even know why. Maybe to bug you, idk.
Add that I became a coward that doesn’t want to get disappointed after failing a new suicide attempt. Honestly that’s probably the biggest reason why I’m still here pretending to live while all I do is simply exist.
You’re not a coward. Trying that will just probably end up making you feel worse and end up giving you more to worry about and suffer through.
So it’s better not to anyway.
You feel like you just simply exist now but i’m sure things will get much better for you soon.
Pft, but i always try me best to bug you 🙁
It’s not working?
You’ll have to stay then till it works 😛
You know what… I don’t mind commenting and telling people about my life, but whenever I put up a post now I feel horrible because part of me feels like I become vulnerable (to what? I have no idea)
Sorry to interrupt you guys but I just saw that in the comments while I was thinking about making a post and I’m exactly the same… it’s like
me – I will make a post.
brain – WHAT!? People will SEE it!
me – but that’s the point…
brain – WHAT!? (etc)
Thanks! And I agree with both of you. I’m starting to try harder to retrain my brain (I’m in a constant state of anxiety and it’s like everything is a threat), but it’s still insane, haha
I’m so anxious. Always. I think it’s one of my biggest problems… I also obsess over the most stupid things and details to the point of losing nights of sleep (as if I had a normal sleep schedule).
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I don’t know what the right answer is here, but you can’t help who you love. You think about you… Not whether you’re good enough or bad for another person… Just think about what you need. X
Thank you, Trix. I know you’re right, the only problem is that I’m so afraid. I feel guilty and I don’t even know why.
If you’re feeling really lost so bad that you feel liek screaming, the best thing to do is stop where you’re at, calm down, take a deep breath, and slow down.
Broken hearts can heal. It’s a tough proccess but it doesn’t always have to mean the end.
Why would you say people have an expiration date for their love to you?
Love is a complicated, deep feeling. It doesn’t just expire.
Love by itself is hard to define, predict or generalize like that, because it means a lot of different things to different people.
Love might weaken over time, or it might be hard for a person to show, it might be going slow or fast or even changing in between – even if it seems like it’s gone or ‘expired’, it doesn’t always mean it is.
Feelings change, people change, things change. Love can change, in a way, but love is a strong feeling that doesn’t just disappear.
Even in case it does fade away, there’s always a chance it can be re-ignited.
It’s a complicated topic, complicated feeling to understand and explain.
Even if you lost sight of your dreams for now, your hope feels like it’s dying, and you’re feeling completely lost and shattered, just try and take a moment.
You’ll pick up the pieces and everything will slowly heal again.
So the weirdest thing just happened because this random hippie lady popped up and asked me “do you like gemstones”?
I said yes (lol ummm…maybe that’s obvious, just look at me) and she gave me this beautiful green agate.
@Tristeza, that’s really nice. 🙂
It is. A new gemstone. I love agates. I think I already have over 30 gemstones.
She just gave it to you? I love it when strangers do things like that. A few weeks ago I was out somewhere and a woman working there told me where I could get something. I said thanks, and only a minute later she went to another room and got it for me. I was ill and hurting like hell, I think she could tell… She got me a drink too, it was so sweet. Means a lot to me when complete strangers go out of their way for you.
That’s so sweet. Means a lot to me too… Yes, she did. I wonder why. Funny, I’m not wearing jewelry today and I’m wearing pants and “boring” clothes. I usually wear some gemstones and summer dresses, my hair is always down… I definitely look like someone that loves nature. And today that I’m not looking like who I am this lady shows up and gives me a gemstone.
I second everything you said about love. You put that a thousand times better than I ever could have. 🙂
Always wise.
I still want to scream. I wish I could scream like crazy here where I am, but I can’t. My soul is screaming at the top of my lungs though.
The expiration date thing is real, unfortunately.
I know I’m not making much sense right now, sorry for that. I appreciate your advice and help. I guess I’m typing whatever comes to my heart. I want my heart to show as it is here, I want my words to be unfiltered.
Nah, the expiration date isn’t real at all 😛
You’re making sense just fine. Even if you don’t it’s no big deal.
Say what you like.
Also you have no reason to feel guilty at all.
Love evolves. Loving others requires that we evolve too. Maybe I needed to learn and teach that before my death.
Are you sure you can deal with my nonsense lol?
Hm.
No I’m not sure 🙂
But keep it up anyway 😛
Are you calling the mental hospital again? Lol
-hangs up the phone-
…
No..
Just so you know they’d take *you* with them too lol
If they only see me they’ll close the place up and shout at you for bringing me there.
I’m trying not to think about how horrible my situation is with all my pain, my past and the never ending hopelessness and lack of interest in living. I need to hold on though, but I don’t even know why. Maybe to bug you, idk.
Add that I became a coward that doesn’t want to get disappointed after failing a new suicide attempt. Honestly that’s probably the biggest reason why I’m still here pretending to live while all I do is simply exist.
It’s not neverending ;p
Hah, you bug me? I dare you. 😛
I’ll be the one who ends up bugging you. 😛
Nah… You never bug me.
You’re not a coward. Trying that will just probably end up making you feel worse and end up giving you more to worry about and suffer through.
So it’s better not to anyway.
You feel like you just simply exist now but i’m sure things will get much better for you soon.
Pft, but i always try me best to bug you 🙁
It’s not working?
You’ll have to stay then till it works 😛
Look at my avatar… What do you see? To me it looks like a pink domo.
Now I’m trying to stop thinking about my problems by deciphering avatars.
Google pink domo. I know, shocking o:
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For some reason I can’t see it on my phone… (coming from you maybe it was a virus >.<)
It is a virus but download it later anyway.
It’s a PINK virus. It’s rare.
You know what… I don’t mind commenting and telling people about my life, but whenever I put up a post now I feel horrible because part of me feels like I become vulnerable (to what? I have no idea)
B-but my favorite color is blue.
You can always take it down later, but you really shouldn’t worry much.
Pink > Blue. Sorry.
But i’ll get you a custom made virus in blue if you insist…
Jee.
Sorry to interrupt you guys but I just saw that in the comments while I was thinking about making a post and I’m exactly the same… it’s like
me – I will make a post.
brain – WHAT!? People will SEE it!
me – but that’s the point…
brain – WHAT!? (etc)
Go make the post and whatever happens happens 😛
It’s just a post anyway, people will see it and … that’s all there is to it 😛
Oh god, exactly. I don’t understand why my brain says that. This is a suicide forum for god’s sake, you can open up Tristeza!
PS. Feel free to interrupt Dudi and I whenever you want to, you know we love to chat.
Why not a rainbow virus?
@Duzo uh do I even need to explain for who was the virus comment
Rainbow viruses are too hard to make.
Thanks! And I agree with both of you. I’m starting to try harder to retrain my brain (I’m in a constant state of anxiety and it’s like everything is a threat), but it’s still insane, haha
I’m so anxious. Always. I think it’s one of my biggest problems… I also obsess over the most stupid things and details to the point of losing nights of sleep (as if I had a normal sleep schedule).
@Duzo Wise but lazy, huh.
I’m not wise and i am not lazy.
I have pink viruses, everyone loves them.
Does nothing ever please you?
HUH?
Describe your personality in 5 words.
Maybe you could make me some coffee, that would help me right now.
You didn’t say the magic word. 😉
In what language, sir?
Choose one. 😛
English.
Describe your personality in 5 words… NOW.
Okay, jk. Pretty please.
Alright fine. I’ll make you some coffee. It’s going to be good.
Also, i politely refuse.
Wise, lazy AND mysterious… We already have 3 words. ;p
These are not true though. 😛
-___- #4. Not fun
My keyboard, why are you against me today? Agh.
1. Rude , 2. Doesn’t like pink viruses , 3. Pink is her favorite color but she’s in denial
Guess who.
And number 4 and 5?
I’ll think about it and let you know ~
-__- I was right about number four…
4. Cruel
You know my birthday is coming, right?
Protip: I like gemstones and books.
Okay. I’m gonna get you a pet rock and fifty shades of grey.
Hey, they made millions from pet rocks and the sparkly vampire book lol.
Now excuse me, but I need to go lunch. I feel 1% better, thank you Duzo and Trix.
Duzo, how can I thank you? I’ll put flowers in your beard later today. Maybe braid it idk. You’re always so sweet. Ttyl.
Just 1%?! Pft.
No need for flowers, leave my beard alone.
I didn’t do anything! 😛