It turns out it does.
How the hell do people find any will to do anything, I don’t understand. One guy told me to “wake up”, I understand what he was saying and I agree with him but I just can’t find anything inside me that has even an iota of positive will.
I can’t understand how people are able to go about their daily lives, am I the only one as fucked as I am? Of course not.
I’ve started doing an online course in programming, to try and regain that lost knowledge I had a year ago but I’m supposed to move out of the house by the end of December. Do I have enough time?
Well regardless I’ll stick with my online course and continue to apply for jobs, still have no idea how I plan to prove my ‘ability’. December is my time limit, like last year but I won’t have my room to fall back to. Will keep posting on this site until then.
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Good luck. What programming language are you learning?
C#
I’ve been trying to learn programming off and on this whole year, but thinking about being a freelancer gives me anxiety attacks so I stop studying for a while.
May good give you the patience and the endurance to overcame your obstacles and bring rest and peace into your body mind and soul in the name of the savior Jesus Christ 😉
Love Funanya <3
long december…counting crows
I am learning assembly language. Already an expert at C. Being able to program machines gives me a sense of purpose. But lately, apathy has been cancelling out all my zeal. I totally relate with what you’re going through. Hopefully, that on-line course can give your passion a jolt. Blessings bro
Hello lsari. Tell us more about “won’t have my room to fall back to”? What’s going on there, for you?