So lets see if I can explain this i have attempted suicide so many times its become like an addiction. But ive always been saved cause ive always gotten afraid and get help after ive done something. I don’t want to live but im afraid to die.i can go half way through with suicide and take the pills i can stand on the bridge but i cant jump and i cant not call for help cause im afraid.
But lately the urge is there again and i have to do it failed attempt or not cause it’s like cutting if you don’t do it the urge gets stronger till you go mad.im not really all that sad though I have my reasons for doing it other than it being a strong urge.lets just say i don’t feel very secure about my future as a friend of mine told me today,.my future looks very bleak especially after my parents pass on i wont know how to survive without them. So as a result my life may or may not be at a halt depending if i can go all the way this time without seeking help
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It doesn’t sound like this is your time. I hope your life continues and improves. Sending you lots of love and best wishes.
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I’m in the same boat as you. It’s not a comfortable feeling to want to die everyday but having no courage to actually do it. I’m afraid to die but so badly want to die because living has become so overbearing and dull nowadays. From a few people who’ve given me an answer, the fear of dying comes from 1.) A natural survival instinct to stay alive 2.) Its not your time or you feel and KNOW that you really don’t want to die. The reasons depend on the person honestly.
I don’t know if I’m allowed to do this. I’m new here but not a stranger to suicide. If you ever want to talk anything out just reply to this.
Best wishes and God bless.
In the words of Ryan Lewis: “Oh girl this boat is sinking. There’s no sea left for me and how the sky gets heavy when you are underneath it. Oh I want to sail away from here.”
I don’t know how good company ill make winterskyout.i don’t know if ill be around or not.but i will give you the chance to try to save my life if you want to.id like to talk but how