I deserve to die, I was fortunate enough to live in a family with a good income and provide me for anything I pleased. But I did nothing but take advantage of them, lie to them and spend every single day playing video games and occasionally smoking weed while failing school. I am definitely one of the laziest, biggest piece of shits in the world. I am absolutely useless and provide nothing to this world whatsoever. Hopefully in these coming days, I will have the courage to end it, as not only do I don’t want to be alive, but I don’t deserve too either.
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Why kill yourself at the point that you realize what you were doing wrong in life? Still not too late to fix things.
Simple, I have no motivation too. I have little to no interests, nothing that makes me happy and I hate life. I don’t want to go through meaningless life full of sorrow, sadness, hardship, work, sicknesses etc. all for pretty much nothing. Fleeting moments of joy are so small compared to all the misery you have to endure in life especially for me.
If you’re physically capable of piloting a longboard, get one. You’re welcome.
I didn’t even mention all the problems I have such as anxiety that I will have to fix in order to have a very unlikely happy life
I feel like I deserve to die; not because I did something wrong, but because I feel like I’ve escaped death a million times, and the fact that I’m still alive is just an accident. Idk. I really feel like I shouldn’t be here anymore.
Actually… I don’t.
You TOOK advantage of them (which is extremely common). You PROVIDE nothing (although I’m sure that’s slightly exaggerated). You have a future ahead of you. To be alive isn’t a gift – in fact, it sounds like it’s incredibly difficult for you. But nobody deserves to die.
I feel quite useless too, like all I do is take from the resources of others. One of my parents said I give more than that, and they love just having me around. I hope that one day I can be of more use in other ways.
There’s nothing that makes me happy either. It’s been years since I felt happy. I’m trying to search for ways to learn to feel it again. I have anxiety (thankfully not as severe anymore) and ME/CFS (getting more severe), which is causing me a lot of exhaustion and pain. Mentally I’ve been much worse than this in the past, but I can’t bear being here and feeling this way. But I hope for a better future. I stopped expecting the depression to naturally lift again years ago, so now I’m trying to do it myself. If you don’t have the motivation to change things, look for help.
However long you’ve been here, it doesn’t mean the rest of your life will be unhappy. Yes, there are things to change, but they can be changed over time. Once they start changing, everything will feel lighter and easier. I’m writing this while I feel a little better – I get completely hopeless moments (or much longer than moments) where all I think of is death. But don’t believe that this is all there is, or that there is no other escape. And please don’t think that you deserved it.
Yeah i am pretty much the same, well all i do is paid surveys online that pay very little, eat, sleep, shower etc. rinse and repeat. Although i feel like i am kinda in a jail here I cant go outside much… I have no interests or motivation either. I just want to be dead. knowing that the whole world is about money only didn’t help. My family is poor but my dad has a pension we live off