Hey guys. I haven’t been on in a while. My life really hasn’t gotten that much better. I did start on an antidepressant, but I feel more suicidal now. I started self harming again. I burn myself a lot. Life just sticks and I hate it.
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Hey. I think I came back here after you were last here, so I don’t think I’ve seen your other posts. I’m so sorry things have been so bad. I hope they look up soon. <3
How long have you been on the antidepressant?
Burning yourself sounds awful. I can understand how it might help, but I hope you find something to replace that habit over time… it's uncomfortable just to imagine someone doing that. I know the pain inside is worse. I'm sorry you've felt the need to self harm again. I really hope it isn't long before your life begins to improve.
I’m in the same situation, I’m on two antidepressants and I feel a lot worse and so, so suicidal right now. I’m not self harming, but destroying myself in my own, different ways. Maybe you need to talk to your doctor, explain how your meds are making you feel. I can’t do much besides sleeping, feeling sick and hating myself. Maybe you can relate.
I’m sorry for your situation; I know I’m not in your shoes, but please avoid hurting your body. I know you’re in pain and needs find a way to release all these emotions, but I hope you can find a new way to make that happen without cutting or burning yourself;
Hopefully things will improve for both of us soon. Sending you a big hug.
– M
PS. Seriously, I basically decided to comment on SP tonight because your name starts with M too (I suppose), and because we’re going through similar things. I don’t think I can really organize my thoughts and I was feeling too desperate to comment anything and try to help someone (even if unsuccessfully), so your post helped me in a way. It gave me strength enough to comment tonight, if that makes sense. Thank you.
PPS. that you need to* (1st comment)
I started 20 mg Paxil today. Not going to get much sleep this week I can already tell.
Welcome back M, said me, with a first name M.
I also left for a tad and now that I’m back I don’t see any of the normal people sorry your life hasn’t improved I know what its like to try so hard with little to none progress
Do you mix antideresseurs with alcohol? That could be why you’re feeling even more suicidal.