as you all know I attempted suicide on Sep 4th of this year. And went to the psyche ward after being released from the hospital. after being released from the psyche ward, I was ready to take in the world. Unfortunately, it was all a mirage. I’m gonna write down a list of things they did to make things seem like it was gonna get better. They was great people and all, but they just don’t understand people like me.
- I just went though a trauma and was forced into a psyche ward
- we had a sense of community and constant therapy
- I thought I made friends
- the doctors and staff was very nice to me
but here is what happened after I left….
- The community ignored me
- the therapy was not constant
- i am lonely and undesirable
- i am alone. I can’t take on the world. I overestimated
rememer when I said I would not have taken the N upon being released from the psyche ward if I had that option. Well if that hypothetical option existed, I’d be regretting it hard right now.
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I always like your posts, you’re so honest. I’ve been in a pysch ward twice during my teen years. First time all we did was sit in a room and watch TV/Movies, ate and then went to bed. The doctor was, excuse my language, an a-hole and called me a munipulator when I talked about feeling better and wanting to give myself another chance. I suppose he believed I was just saying that to get out of there (half-truth but I did feel a little better after talking with some of the other patients. Unfortunately, we never exchanged contact info and I forgot their names.)
Second time I was admitted I talked with the therapist for 5 minutes each day, I went to “school” in the hospital, I stayed in my room, read books, ate, showered, took medication and then went to bed. It was useless and I was actually bullied and isolated by some of the other patients in there.
I’m on the fence about the benefits of being in a psych ward. I was able to receive outpatient treatment which did somewhat help but the experience inside was useless for me.
I think everyone has a different experience. I’d say it’s better to be out of there and continue to work on your goals. I became severely depressed after I left the psych ward both times; I believed I was useless because I didn’t see any progress. Looking back I wish I would’ve been nicer to myself and realized it wasn’t my fault just because some “professionals” wanted to make me feel guilty for my suicidal thoughts.
I hope you’re doing alright, wndozh. Sorry the second website I mentioned on making never came to fruition. I’m happy to see you’re still posting though.
they should put depressed ppl on cocaine, meth, morphine or something that makes u euphoric so we can cope…i d say we wouldn t really mind if i d kill us at some point. if not..just prescribe a high dose of n so we can off ourselves..problems solved.
Often they do not provide the necessary support after release. They see at as being for stabalization, almost like the ER, but for the patients it doesn’t work that way. I know of one hospital where they are good about enrolling people in an outpatient program before release – if your insurance covers it, of course. If you mention not being able to pay they something like “don’t worry about that now. The important thing is to get you better.” Um, yeah, if they think a $25,000 hospital bill is going to make me feel better then they are the ones who are crazy!
It is uncommon for patients to keep in touch post-hospital stay, for numerous reasons. You are more likely to make friends in an outpatient group therapy setting.
Personally, I am opposed to forced stays except under the most extreme circumstances (someone who is severely psychotic and actively violent, for example).
*it as being oops
Oh geez, I made several errors. Sorry. Tired.
Yes, I understand this feeling perfectly. I can relate so well. I understand how you feel.
To me, medication is nothing more than a distraction to make you forget, just like everything else in this world.
wndozh8er;
This is Rocketman and you have always been one of my favorites. I am going to give you some advice that I hope will put your experience in some perspective. In patient mental health facilities are not really there to fix all of your problems and release you when they think you are better. They are there mainly to observe you on medication to make sure that you don’t have a reaction and that it is working for you. Sure they have therapy and group sessions, but that is mainly to fill your time with constructive things to do. Just like the activities they might have. Don’t get me wrong some people do find it helpful, but that is not it’s sole purpose. It is up to you when you get released to find what works for you. You are the only one who knows your triggers and what helps you most.
What rocketman wrote is essentially my experience with inpatient treatment. The unit wants to give you a safe environment to work through the immediate crisis, allow time to observe your reaction to any prescribed medications, and to make sure that you are ready for discharge with a plan that typically involves outpatient assets in the community. The inpatient unit is a controlled environment and a lot of what happens there is sometimes the result of filling in the sixteen hours that you aren’t sleeping.
distant.road
Absolutely once you leave the facility it’s up to YOU!