I don’t know how long it’s been since I posted something here, but it’s been some time…
I should probably start with ‘hi’. I felt the need to write something today. Not for any particular reason, I just want to write something.
Things are… Let’s go with okay. It’s been a lot of ups and downs recently. Let’s start with the ups:
I’ve moved on to a new area of education, left some friends behind, and made a few new ones. It’s all for the better, these new friends seem to be better people.
I ahould be starting counselling soon, which is good, because all I want is to talk to someone and hopefully get referred and get diagnosed with something.
I’m coming to terms with my gender, in a way. Changing pronouns and names is something that works for me, which is good.
And the downs:
I feel that whatever issues I have in my head, be it depression or something else, are just getting worse.
I’m self harming a lot more than normal.
I contemplate suicide nearly everyday.
Although I’m coming to terms with it, my gender is still a difficult thing, and in education it’s hard to swap between names and pronouns, and I experience a fair bit of dysphoria.
But yeah, that’s what’s up with me.
Also, any comments that are left on any of my posts, I read them all, and I do appreciate them, I’m just not in the right frame of mind to reply, so I’m sorry about that.
I hope you’re all feeling okay today, and that everything goes your way 🙂