Every night I feel like disappearing. I have complete means and method to achieve this. However, I made a promise to someone who know hates me. I don’t really think of committing suicide anymore, but every night I just want to disappear. This really just sucks. I am trying to coupe with it as best as I can. Every night I just want to disappear and everyday I wake up with tears. I don’t even know what I dreamed about.
I am pushing forward, but my mind is holding me back. I don’t think negatively of myself anymore. I feel like I turned out pretty well given all my circumstances. However, it doesn’t change the fact, I want to disappear. I want to die. I have done enough research to know exact means and method I would use. I have calculated everything to the point that I wouldn’t even suffer. The cost of getting everything. I am not scared of death. I have no remorse if I was to attempt it. My mind is blank. I don’t understand. I am trying to move forward. No results yet.
I am still trying to move forward. I wanted to put this out there. I may want to die. I am just not sure why anymore. I have no thoughts of life or death. Nothing matters to me anymore. I am confused. I am like a Zombie now.
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I’m sorry you’re experiencing this. Just out of interest, what are you doing to try to move forward? How long have you been trying? Forcing yourself through it without any relief or practical steps that might make you feel better can be a long wait. I hope you have some of those things in place.
What are your means to do it? I want to go…
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