Well its less than 2 weeks away till thanksgiving the beginning of the holiday season and I am single for the first time in two years, feeling depressed from the overwhelming load of classwork and haunting thoughts from this time last year. I just feel so alone . To the point that I honestly think its pathetic. I mean I know I’m extremley pretty, nice, loyal, funny , hardworking and yet I am still here alone. I mean its bad enough that I sleep with the tv on just so I have a little bit of company at night. I am trying hard to stay postive and strong but even I know its slowly starting to slip. It doesnt help that I have multiple medical tests, appiontments, and a dental surgery coming up after finals week and before christmas. What advice can you guys give me on surviving the hoildays alone?
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Write in a journal to express your thoughts so one day you can look back on how you felt during this lonely time. Also realize that it’s only temporary and that the new year is right around the corner. You aren’t the only one who feels lonely during the holidays. There are plenty of places online where you can commiserate with similarly lonely people during the time. It may not be the same as IRL interaction, but it’s at least something, right? I think you’ll be fine.
I agree with psycho.
I’m almost always alone for the holidays, the one time of year when being ‘me’ knows deeply how little I fit in. People are going to put this down, but, at first, I would get a 1/2 gram of cocaine to keep me ‘up’ during the holiday season. I’d only do a little each evening. I’d finish it on New Year’s Eve, then go on with my life, no more cocaine until the next year.
I realize that not everyone can do this, just leave it alone for a year, and make so little last an entire season.
What I do now is fix myself my very own holiday dinner, rent a movie, perhaps go to a movie. Lots of movies premiere during the season. I treat myself to what I want, be it a fancy dessert or champagne.
You can also volunteer to serve holiday meals to the homeless. Reaching out to help others is a great way to forget your own pain and loneliness.
It takes time, but can be done. All that said, I still want a T-shirt that says “I survived yet another Season to be Jolly.”
The first year is the hardest. Who knows what the future will bring? And good that you ‘can’ have that dental surgery, get it over with, then go on to a New Year. BTW, if you aren’t an easily addicted person, they usually give you some great pain meds after surgery. I’m not suggesting this as a way of life, but we all need a break from time to time.
Perhaps the healthiest suggestion is to serve others, help feed the homeless. BTW, I’m not an addict or a kid. I’m a 71 year old woman.
I wish you well in surviving this season and a far better 2016.
I feel I must add that if you are not familiar with drugs, please don’t try the cocaine. Personally, I’ve lived with suicidal depression and heightened anxiety since age 16. Back then, there were no reasonable treatments for what ailed me, except therapy. I had to do my best, on my own, to survive. Hey, and I did.
You seem to be a newcomer to being alone during the holidays, and this might be your only alone holiday. BTW, I’ve talked to many who wish they didn’t have family obligations, that they could spend the holidays as they pleased. So be good to yourself. Treat yourself well.
I’m trying to ignore the holiday season this year. If you can do that. Plus I spend most of my time on this site since I found it a week ago. I just keep reading posts alot that I can relate too, It helps with life. And i add comments hoping that what i say helps ppl like me.
Im hoping this whole holiday season comes and goes while being on this site. I used to believe and be all about this season. But now that im broken. This site, reading alot and helping others and myself. Is i think a good way to get through it.