I’ve decided that I won’t kill myself on the 30th. After all, someone told me that one, my family and friends will be grieving and that if I kill myself, I might give a lot of people despair. Second, my dreams – to be a ballet dancer, to be friends with my crush (which is kind of weird to be placed here, heh), and to serve the country as a scientist – will all be lost when I die. Third is that I want to let other depressed and suicidal people live and know that we can all defeat our suicidal thoughts and not let them kill us, literally. Sure, I may have forgotten how to be happy right now, but in time (probably weeks, months, or a year or two from now), I’ll be happier than ever. I think that life will get better, but school might be harder next year so maybe these suicidal thoughts will come back but I hope that they don’t affect me like they did this year.
I want to spread hope to others, not despair.
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🙂 I really like this post.
I’m glad you have hope for yourself, too.
This really made me smile. Hope. Gosh I love it.
This just calmed me down. I want to start thinking like this. Im going to start thinking like this from this moment on. Hope. There’s hope for me yet.