I can’t let go!

Sometimes it is hard to let go. I was in this dumb relationship once.  I loved him so much that i could let go everything for him. We were doing great and people thought we looked cute together (now the idea of us being cute together sucks). This was that kind of relationship where there was no fighting but love was directly proportional to the passing days. But destiny is one big mother fucker! Very soon we weren’t doing great. He stopped talking to me and after a while even i did and very soon under some stupid circumstances we broke up (an initiative taken by me). At first it seemed to be right but later all i had was guilt going round and round in my brain. I thought i shouldn’t have done this. I chased him like crazy people but i never got him back. All i thought that my life was completely fucked up. I cried and cried and cut myself and all i got was nothing. I can’t let him go. He was one hell of an angel who changed my life. But as if destiny just gave me a face palm saying that ‘SUCK IT UP! You will never get him back! haha! It hurts! It is painful to let someone go like that especially one you spent like one year with that person! Someone rightly said ” it is not hard to hang on but hard to let go.”