You don’t have to use them. Having the means to exit is a comfort. Maybe you can give it another day, then decide. Go to church one more time. Do everything you enjoy one more time. There is no need to rush.
The Chemicals: Its amazing, what chemicals can do to us. The mood elevations, depressions, anger, lust, love, everything is eventually governed by what is the ratio of the chemicals.
We are so so weak in the interpretations of feelings that we are unable to identify the true happiness when it is induced by chemicals or is attained by helping someone in need. But we are just so occupied that we don’t even know what we want to do with us. On the verge of destruction, on every breath, we are not able to understand why we want those things happen to us that we deliberately want to, longed for; instead of just seeing the life as a movie and enjoying every bit of it, each character that comes and goes from our lives, definitely leaves a re mark on our personaility, but unfortunately we are not just strong enough to realize that may be at some point of time, all this is just a butterfly effect, we flapped our wings in the past, where they were not supposed to be flapped and that given rise to this chaos that we are in today. We complain on selfishness of this world but instead we are just too selfish ourselves to notice that every breath we live, not just for ourselves but for others, for people around us, for happiness which is around us and we just too blind in our condition to notice the small things that can make us happy and change the chemical imbalance. Sometimes we feel so lost that we forget that we have seen better days and that we can still have a better day. We are not perfect, we are not supposed to be, but quitting without a fight is just too cowardly. We are everything, but a coward, we are survivors of this million years of evolution, we reached the core of this earth, got out of the bounds of the solar system, and yet we are so weak that we cannot control what our glands are leaking into our body.
You bought the pills, that shows that you are not coward. You decided to take away your life, and that requires strength. Why not use that strength to explore your inner self and touch your own heart like that way it was never touched by any one. Why not command and take control of our own chemicals to feel the way we want to feel, once you realized it you will notice that there is no actuality in this world. We are our own masters and everything else is there for our own support, everything and everyone, even those people who stabbed in our back, even those whom we loved and gave our heart and they just threw it away, those who made us what we are today and those who are yet to come.
Let’s show ourselves that we are in control of ourselves, not the situations that lead us to decide what we think and are afraid of. Because in the end, it is just the ratio of the chemicals.
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Please stay. If you really must go then I wish you a safe journey. But please stay.
i have tablets ibn my bag ready, its very comforting
You don’t have to use them. Having the means to exit is a comfort. Maybe you can give it another day, then decide. Go to church one more time. Do everything you enjoy one more time. There is no need to rush.
i will try to stick out the weekend, we have my works christmas meal, i will see how i feel then
Great idea 🙂
Sometimes just having the option takes the pressure away.
The Chemicals: Its amazing, what chemicals can do to us. The mood elevations, depressions, anger, lust, love, everything is eventually governed by what is the ratio of the chemicals.
We are so so weak in the interpretations of feelings that we are unable to identify the true happiness when it is induced by chemicals or is attained by helping someone in need. But we are just so occupied that we don’t even know what we want to do with us. On the verge of destruction, on every breath, we are not able to understand why we want those things happen to us that we deliberately want to, longed for; instead of just seeing the life as a movie and enjoying every bit of it, each character that comes and goes from our lives, definitely leaves a re mark on our personaility, but unfortunately we are not just strong enough to realize that may be at some point of time, all this is just a butterfly effect, we flapped our wings in the past, where they were not supposed to be flapped and that given rise to this chaos that we are in today. We complain on selfishness of this world but instead we are just too selfish ourselves to notice that every breath we live, not just for ourselves but for others, for people around us, for happiness which is around us and we just too blind in our condition to notice the small things that can make us happy and change the chemical imbalance. Sometimes we feel so lost that we forget that we have seen better days and that we can still have a better day. We are not perfect, we are not supposed to be, but quitting without a fight is just too cowardly. We are everything, but a coward, we are survivors of this million years of evolution, we reached the core of this earth, got out of the bounds of the solar system, and yet we are so weak that we cannot control what our glands are leaking into our body.
You bought the pills, that shows that you are not coward. You decided to take away your life, and that requires strength. Why not use that strength to explore your inner self and touch your own heart like that way it was never touched by any one. Why not command and take control of our own chemicals to feel the way we want to feel, once you realized it you will notice that there is no actuality in this world. We are our own masters and everything else is there for our own support, everything and everyone, even those people who stabbed in our back, even those whom we loved and gave our heart and they just threw it away, those who made us what we are today and those who are yet to come.
Let’s show ourselves that we are in control of ourselves, not the situations that lead us to decide what we think and are afraid of. Because in the end, it is just the ratio of the chemicals.
This is beautiful.