Every day I wake up with the same thought
Reminiscing about the losing battles that I fought
I remind myself of these miserable pasts
So that I may learn and achieve victory at last
Sometimes I win a battle but not the war
I still go on for what I’m fighting for
But lately I have only met defeat
Making it harder to stand on my feet
Must I give up and accept this fate?
Living in shackles with a heavy weight?
I refuse to live in such a way
But losing brings me closer to that day
My enemy is cunning and deceiving
I’m unable to avoid the traps he’s leaving
His favorite weapons are tricks and lies
And everywhere he has ears and eyes
Yet he does not shows himself to me
And attacks me when I think I’m free
He disguises himself so well
That the difference of friend from foe I cannot tell
Because of him I lost many things I hold dear
Because of him I live my life in constant fear
I have grown weary of this fight
It has taken away all my might
Yet he does not give me the mercy of death
Even when he has taken away everything that I have left
I ask him what he is after
He answers me with laughter
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I like what your poem. There are never battles completely lost if at least you fought. There are others that never fight for anything and accept their reality without enough fight.
Death? It is something that we all have to live someday, sooner or later. After all life is a cycle, in which some come to suffer and others to enjoy. Some leave this world earlier than others. Some take their life and others lose their life for the life of others. Then we have to breathe deeply, be thankful for one day more and never lose the hope that one day, we will no have to fight more battles, that the desire to be death will dissipate.
Thank you for writing something extremely relatable. I’ve accepted defeat today. Sometimes it’s just like that and all I can do is lie here in my own personal hell. I’m not going to feel guilty about it. Tomorrow is another opportunity and I have something coming in the mail that should help ease my mental pain. I hope you find some peace. *HUGS*