Numb to feel

You could look at it in two ways: 1. We deserve everything we want, and who is worth more than us to tell otherwise? or 2. We deserve absolutely nothing, why should we deserve anything at all?, but that doesn’t answer your question. What i’m getting at with it tho, is that you can’t really say if you don’t deserve her… i mean, obviously she saw something in you, and how do you know if she doesn’t already see the real you behind the jokes and fun?

Might be wrong here, but i do believe that it’s best to try and fail than never trying at all. At least you do know that you tried. You already sound like an excellent person by worrying about her to the extent of giving her up because you think she could do better… that in itself proves that you’re worthy of her. And who’s to say that gray and colors don’t go fine together? 🙂