I’m not thinking rationally right now…the thing about being bi polar is it all hits you so hard so fast and you cant get away from whatever emotion is running you over and all i want to do is breathe help me please im drowning in me… I want to die please tell me no please tell me no its buring a hole in me i dont want this anymore please please please
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Hey. I’m here. It’s OK.
Your mind is going a thousand miles an hour but the world is still slowly puttering along. I know I just looked outside. Typical figgy with occasional deer here.
foggy
You’ve got this, I’m right there with you.. I know how you feel. You’ll get through this.
You need a safe place in your head you can go when this happens. Well, me too. Sometimes the despair hits me that hard and I just sit down on the floor and wish my heart would stop beating. After a few minutes it goes away.
What you have is no doubt much more pernicious.
Hope you crashed in a good way and are OK.
I need to crash in a traditional way so I will be allowed my coffee ration tomorrow.
Peace be with you, little one.
Thank you SeeSmith. I’m still here… Thank you so much for your words. I’m not sure what to do but I’m still here so that’s a plus I guess
What to do? Think happy thoughts. Something good happened to you recently. What was it? Wasn’t finding SP a good thing? Aren’t the people on SP interesting? When was the last time you able to interact with so many fascinating characters?
When was the last time you acquired a beautiful piece of jewelry?
Do you like flowers? I love lillies. They smell so wonderful.
What’s the most fun place you have traveled to? Have you ever been overseas? How do you feel about horribly tacky tourist traps?
When was the last time you went to a drive-in movie?
TaDB, how are you now? Wish I’d been here to talk to you when you posted. Remember we all love you here. I know how overwhelming it is but please try to remember. Please keep breathing.
Thanks loves… it was a rough night but I got through it 🙂 you guys all help so much- I hope you all have beautiful days today
I hope you don’t mind I was trying to write supportive comments in my sleep. Quality seems to take a real nosedive when I do that. Also humor, spelling, and appropriateness.
Ahh… OK, not so bad. I’ve been told on more than one occasion I say “fabulous breasts” in my sleep and I was worried that would leak out.
Deep Breath, any tip on the correct thing to say next time would be appreciated. Glad you broke on through, broke on through, broke on through to the other side. Yeah.
I’m not going to lie… saying “fabulous breasts” probably would’ve been hilarious. What you said was perfect. It really was. And the fact that you related to it with personal experience was probably the most helpful thing you did. Thanks love
I hope you’re a little better at least
I’m not actively trying to kill myself this morning, so I would say I’m doing better. I wish I was on rocketman’s submarine though lol. Thanks for your concern love 🙂
: ( I’m sorry you had such a rough night, I’m relieved you feel (or at least felt) better. You’re a lovely person, we need people like you around.
TADB…I so understand. When it hits like a ton of bricks and there is no escaping. Are you on any medicine? When I get as bad as you were earlier I absolutely have to go on something hard core. My thoughts are with you. I swim, and listen to music, and hike. And hide in the shower. it helps.