I actually have been through this. Maybe going though this again.
The only difference in our stories is you had more amphetamines than I did… And I *never* forgot. You don’t have a “fat talisman”? I have a belt. My BFF gave it to me when I was at my 325 peak. I’ve been punching new holes in it for three years as I got down to 213. If that belt was in a burning orphanage I’d ignore the kids just to save it.
No way I’m ever going back. My damn patents keep sweets everywhere and I’m 15 lbs up from where I was a year ago. Not acceptable.
I can’t, but you may be able to get an Adult ADD diagnosis. If you are successful I’ll be your friend! 😉 B-) 😀
I actually already have an ADD diagnosis. I was diagnosed at 7. Have been using amphetamines continuously ever since. A decade of unbroken dependence on speed. I’m such a winner, aren’t I?
Anyway, that belt sounds really cool. I need something like that. Maybe not the same thing though.
If you’re giing through this too, then I wish you the best of luck.
Been there, and i’ve been fighting weight most of my life (33 now). I’ve been obese two times, borderline anorexic, regular on another (don’t know how to call it), skinny yet regular now. The thing about it is… well, it’s not that you can never seem to win, it’s that almost any “win” in this life is temporary, and that includes weight control. I don’t know what you call “anti-depressants showing on you” (i’m going to guess it’s extra weight?), but whatever it is, it might be fixable.
You also have the fact that some people change a lot physically over the years, some don’t change at all and then *poof!* big change. For some weight is an eternal struggle, for others it’s not… genetics? yeah, but overall eating habits can be fixed in order to compensate for crappy genetics. A person eating like crap will win/lose excessive weight eventually, no matter how good their genes are.
It does take time to get a hold of your physical condition (specially if you’re on meds), but it can be done if you care enough about it, and this is coming from a guy who used to weight twice than what he weights now (and i’m not underweight atm).
Oh wow. I’ve never flip-flopped quite so dramatically. That mustve made buying clothes a royal pain. :/
That part about all winning being temporay, that actually makes a lot of sense. I can probably accept that. Thank you.
Yeah, I’ve been told that as well. No matter who you are, weight is always a matter of energy consumed minus energy used. No matter your genes. The same applies to me. My problem: from birth, I’ve had very poor bone health. Exercise, for me, has always really hurt. There was only one time for me when it didn’t, and that was after my physical therapy years ago. I probably can’t get phys therapy anymore, and even if I could, I already have too many doctors. I can’t drive, and I don’t want to burden my guardians with more appointments to drive me to.
Hah you’re right on that one. It was a good thing that i kept old clothes (my family never lets me throw out anything), but going from xl-xxl to xs-s to xxl again was quite a fun thing to do (no, not really). Sorry to hear you have bone health, i sort of have physical problems too, so all i can recommend is starting little by little, and nothing that pushes you too hard. I’ve noticed that if you do that, your body does get used to it, and in some cases it has even helped my problems (if done carefully).
Thanks, Mf. Who knows? I might be able to adapt. My bones may be bad, but bones are a lot more dynamic than people give them credit for. They change constantly. We’ll see, I guess.
I gain massive weight when I am on depikote. I understand the dilemma. Here is the real question I ask myself, which is more important, my mental health or being overweight. When I go on medicine it is because everything else failed. I always feel like a complete failure when I go on medication, like I failed as a human. However the alternative is living minute to minute with racing impulsive suicidal thoughts that I just can’t stop. Depikote stops that in its tracks.
So the question is which is more important right now, weight gain or your mental health. You are not the only one who goes through this. One of the major side effects of most mental illness medicine is weight gain. Weather it is SSRI’s or the older generation anti psychotics. It is always a balancing act. I don’t have any easy answers. You could try weaning yourself off the medicine with a dr’s guidance and a lot of cognitive behavior modification which would include diet and exorcise. However that is a really hard road and requires a hell of a lot of emotional support from everyone involved. Not that it doesn’t work, but it also can destroy you life.
I wish I had a fat fairy wand to waive over all the people I know who gain weight due to the need of medicine for their mental illness. Nothing seems worse than gaining weight just when you start feeling human. However think this, being dead or just suicidal driven is a life ending type of thing.
Crap, I don’t feel like this is helping at all. I will keep you in my thoughts.
It’s okay if you feel like you aren’t helping. To be honest, nothing helps me more than knowing that someone actually gives a crap about me, and simply commenting shows me that you do.
My mom’s on depikote by the way. That’s some crazy stuff. Best wishes.
I take my medicine daily. I’m a weak person. Without it, killing myself is very literally the only thing that I can ever think about. It’s like holding in a scream, forever.
I agree with you that mental health is more important than appearance. My only problem is that my appearance affects my sense of self-worth. Which is my fault. I claim to love people for their souls and their minds and their hearts, rather than their looks. But I cant even apply this creed to myself. I am a hypocrite.
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I actually have been through this. Maybe going though this again.
The only difference in our stories is you had more amphetamines than I did… And I *never* forgot. You don’t have a “fat talisman”? I have a belt. My BFF gave it to me when I was at my 325 peak. I’ve been punching new holes in it for three years as I got down to 213. If that belt was in a burning orphanage I’d ignore the kids just to save it.
No way I’m ever going back. My damn patents keep sweets everywhere and I’m 15 lbs up from where I was a year ago. Not acceptable.
I can’t, but you may be able to get an Adult ADD diagnosis. If you are successful I’ll be your friend! 😉 B-) 😀
I actually already have an ADD diagnosis. I was diagnosed at 7. Have been using amphetamines continuously ever since. A decade of unbroken dependence on speed. I’m such a winner, aren’t I?
Anyway, that belt sounds really cool. I need something like that. Maybe not the same thing though.
If you’re giing through this too, then I wish you the best of luck.
Actually, yes you do sound like a winner WF. What meds you take has nothing to do with who you are. I wish you’d drop the self-pummeling.
Actually, you’re fascinating. Mf has a crush on you, BTW.
You already know how to lose weight with the help of speed. I wish you luck! You can do this.
I’ll drop this extra weight after xmas. I know I can do it. It’s a pain but in the grand scheme of things, a minor pain.
@SeeSmith: at times i wonder what my day would be without some of your trolling, lol.
Been there, and i’ve been fighting weight most of my life (33 now). I’ve been obese two times, borderline anorexic, regular on another (don’t know how to call it), skinny yet regular now. The thing about it is… well, it’s not that you can never seem to win, it’s that almost any “win” in this life is temporary, and that includes weight control. I don’t know what you call “anti-depressants showing on you” (i’m going to guess it’s extra weight?), but whatever it is, it might be fixable.
You also have the fact that some people change a lot physically over the years, some don’t change at all and then *poof!* big change. For some weight is an eternal struggle, for others it’s not… genetics? yeah, but overall eating habits can be fixed in order to compensate for crappy genetics. A person eating like crap will win/lose excessive weight eventually, no matter how good their genes are.
It does take time to get a hold of your physical condition (specially if you’re on meds), but it can be done if you care enough about it, and this is coming from a guy who used to weight twice than what he weights now (and i’m not underweight atm).
Oh wow. I’ve never flip-flopped quite so dramatically. That mustve made buying clothes a royal pain. :/
That part about all winning being temporay, that actually makes a lot of sense. I can probably accept that. Thank you.
Yeah, I’ve been told that as well. No matter who you are, weight is always a matter of energy consumed minus energy used. No matter your genes. The same applies to me. My problem: from birth, I’ve had very poor bone health. Exercise, for me, has always really hurt. There was only one time for me when it didn’t, and that was after my physical therapy years ago. I probably can’t get phys therapy anymore, and even if I could, I already have too many doctors. I can’t drive, and I don’t want to burden my guardians with more appointments to drive me to.
Hah you’re right on that one. It was a good thing that i kept old clothes (my family never lets me throw out anything), but going from xl-xxl to xs-s to xxl again was quite a fun thing to do (no, not really). Sorry to hear you have bone health, i sort of have physical problems too, so all i can recommend is starting little by little, and nothing that pushes you too hard. I’ve noticed that if you do that, your body does get used to it, and in some cases it has even helped my problems (if done carefully).
Thanks, Mf. Who knows? I might be able to adapt. My bones may be bad, but bones are a lot more dynamic than people give them credit for. They change constantly. We’ll see, I guess.
I gain massive weight when I am on depikote. I understand the dilemma. Here is the real question I ask myself, which is more important, my mental health or being overweight. When I go on medicine it is because everything else failed. I always feel like a complete failure when I go on medication, like I failed as a human. However the alternative is living minute to minute with racing impulsive suicidal thoughts that I just can’t stop. Depikote stops that in its tracks.
So the question is which is more important right now, weight gain or your mental health. You are not the only one who goes through this. One of the major side effects of most mental illness medicine is weight gain. Weather it is SSRI’s or the older generation anti psychotics. It is always a balancing act. I don’t have any easy answers. You could try weaning yourself off the medicine with a dr’s guidance and a lot of cognitive behavior modification which would include diet and exorcise. However that is a really hard road and requires a hell of a lot of emotional support from everyone involved. Not that it doesn’t work, but it also can destroy you life.
I wish I had a fat fairy wand to waive over all the people I know who gain weight due to the need of medicine for their mental illness. Nothing seems worse than gaining weight just when you start feeling human. However think this, being dead or just suicidal driven is a life ending type of thing.
Crap, I don’t feel like this is helping at all. I will keep you in my thoughts.
It’s okay if you feel like you aren’t helping. To be honest, nothing helps me more than knowing that someone actually gives a crap about me, and simply commenting shows me that you do.
My mom’s on depikote by the way. That’s some crazy stuff. Best wishes.
I take my medicine daily. I’m a weak person. Without it, killing myself is very literally the only thing that I can ever think about. It’s like holding in a scream, forever.
I agree with you that mental health is more important than appearance. My only problem is that my appearance affects my sense of self-worth. Which is my fault. I claim to love people for their souls and their minds and their hearts, rather than their looks. But I cant even apply this creed to myself. I am a hypocrite.