how is it that the only reason i have for not killing myself is that I’m worried that my cat won’t have a good home??? That is sad. I have no one. I am alone. People make me think I can talk to them and when I do…..They back off. I can’t depend on anyone. My boyfriend brok up with me because I went off on him because I was paranoid he was doing the same. I inevitably caused him to leave me permanently. I wanna die. But I’m scared that if it doens’t work I’m going to have bills. I have no job, no insurance, no money, and my boyfriend was helping me with bills and paying for my therapy. I want help. Really….I just can’t afford it. And if I don’t get help soon, I will kill myself. Why do people say they want to help then run away the moment you reach out??? The people I want to scream to “help me please! I’m not safe to be alone!” are the ones that just say they’re sorry and don’t talk to me anymore for weeks and don’t wanna see me anymore. I don’t understand it….I just want to die. I can’t ge tout of bed. My limbs feel so heavy….I’m tired but I can’t sleep. the pain is too much. I’ve seen on here people commenting and talking….is there anyone out there willing to listen and not run away??