how is it that the only reason i have for not killing myself is that I’m worried that my cat won’t have a good home??? That is sad. I have no one. I am alone. People make me think I can talk to them and when I do…..They back off. I can’t depend on anyone. My boyfriend brok up with me because I went off on him because I was paranoid he was doing the same. I inevitably caused him to leave me permanently. I wanna die. But I’m scared that if it doens’t work I’m going to have bills. I have no job, no insurance, no money, and my boyfriend was helping me with bills and paying for my therapy. I want help. Really….I just can’t afford it. And if I don’t get help soon, I will kill myself. Why do people say they want to help then run away the moment you reach out??? The people I want to scream to “help me please! I’m not safe to be alone!” are the ones that just say they’re sorry and don’t talk to me anymore for weeks and don’t wanna see me anymore. I don’t understand it….I just want to die. I can’t ge tout of bed. My limbs feel so heavy….I’m tired but I can’t sleep. the pain is too much. I’ve seen on here people commenting and talking….is there anyone out there willing to listen and not run away??
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Maybe? Nothing is guaranteed. Although on SP people generally don’t have any place to run *to*. So you’re probably going to be OK here.
Yes, people try to be supportive but they are pretty useless when it comes to dealing with someone in need of serious emotional support. You eventually get to the point where you can spot them ahead of time.
Technically you need over four cats to be considered crazy. A year and a half ago I had nine. They were delicious!
No it’s not crazy to want to be alive only for your cat. There are lots of people who love their pets more than they do people. Heck, I think animals are better than humans and I’m allergic to animals!
Yep, people are a disappointment. They always pretend to be there for you but will never be, except for the rare friend if you are lucky. I have no one either. At least you have a cat 😛 I can’t be around animals because I’m allergic to them. It’s really sad.
Anyway, I assume SP is *the* place to go when we need to “talk” to someone or let out our emotions, because I think most of us have that same problem, that we have nowhere to turn to, nobody to tell how we really feel.
I could only hope to be a noble as my pet chickens.
lol. Do you actually have pet chickens?
Three chickens. Two that coo and cluck and one that crows. The one that crows has a vendetta for the neighbor and is now relegated to the pen until the sun is at least over the trees. This chicken came close to becoming soup last week.
mm…lotsa fresh eggs 😛
No yet, they are a bunch of resentful teen chickens freeloading off me. All I have to say is they better start producing something in 2016. Eggs would be good but they could knit sweaters and sell them for extra cash or maybe go grocery shopping for me and run errands. Right now they just complain resentfully in the back yard and harass my kind neighbors.
I wish I had a little robot to run my errands too. Heck, wash my dishes and clean my apt too while they’re at it! And all I’d need to do is “feed it” (charge it) 😛 Yup. Why is technology not keeping up with my wants??
Are you able to get on disability? I’ve been seeing psychiatrists and therapists for as long as I can remember, even when I was working. I got worst and worst until I literally couldn’t get out of bed. I was admitted into the hospital and had to quit my job.
Disability didn’t cross my mind until my friend told me to apply. I’m not some freeloader. I have serious issues: bipolar, major depression, anxiety, agoraphobia, Borderline Personality Disorder. See if you can get disability.
Also, call your community mental health place. I did it as soon as I moved to the city I’m in now. Every city pretty much has a mental place open to the community. Just look it up. They know people don’t have money. They could help set you up with insurance and get you on the right track.
Oh, speaking of disability, since you’ve been seeing a therapist and/or psychiatrist, you need documentation of that for your lawyer. They need to see proof that you have a problem. It’s easier if you broke your leg and they could say “See! Her leg is broken!” it would be obvious. With mental health, make sure you keep all your documents of appointments with your therapists, etc. They need to see that for proof when you apply.