It’s me i haven’t killed myself yet still thinking of January or just before. My father may have something wrong with his kidneys and i don’t want to watch him die my god mother has something wrong with her heart and i know death is approaching fast so my death must approach i am only worried about leaving my mom without money especially if dad dies im a big part of what keeps money coming in.i don’t know how to change that in fact it breaks my heart.i know they’ll be looked after by god even after im gone i just worry about them.im not even sure if thisll work but i got to get out of here
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I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time. Thoughts and prayers heading your way. If you believe in prayers. Good luck with the on coming days.
@passionfruit: Good to know you’re still with us. what will your mother do after you are gone?
She will mourn me probably for a long time but she will have others who i trust to take care of her.my siblings. The money situation is terrible but no one will leave her out to dry shes to good of a person .she will be okay.if my father dies i don’t know how shell react she doesn’t love him but she still cares for him it will hurt.it is selfish of me to leave but i am a scared coward who if they knew the real me would not miss me
It sounds like you are working full time and taking care of your family so you can’t be all that bad.
Actually i don’t work at all im on disability my mom is my payee and uses some of the money to pay rent she also has a job taking care of me and one other job my dad works but he doesn’t get much either and my mom gets the most money from me
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