let’s start over.

When I look back on 2015, it’s been a dark and frightening journey for me. I almost attempted self-harming and thought up multiple suicide methods for myself. It’s been difficult, yeah, but hey it’s the end of the year now. I am still waking up in the morning, and for that I am eternally grateful. One thing I’ve learned here is to know when to stop this incessant worrying inside my head. Overthinking has always been a huge issue for me, but I’ve kept pushing through, no matter how hard it has proven to be. A few months ago, I made a promise to myself to always continue living, no matter what happens in my life. So far, I’ve kept that promise to myself, and I will continue to do so for as long as possible. I’ve been through some dark times due to this obsessive self-reflection over past events, however I am learning that the solution was simply to forgive myself and move forward. and now that I’ve done exactly that, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. As much of a perfectionist as I am, I need to realize that, well, I’ll NEVER be perfect. You wanna know why? because NOBODY IS PERFECT!!! and that’s ok. I’m learning, I’ve done whatever self-reflection was necessary at the time, and I’m moving on now. Here’s to better days, everyone, because, well, I have learned through experience that you can, NO, you will get better. It takes time to heal, but, I promise it’ll all be ok. If you’re reading this, thank you for taking the time to listen to my story, and please know that whatever it is you are feeling bad about, you are worth so much more than your mistakes or the mistakes of others. Please don’t ever forget that. You are a living, breathing human being and you are beautiful and nobody can take that away from you.

Here’s to 2016, friends.

Much love xx

-Daniel