So I went to some fancy schmancy doctors in San Francisco to get the results back from my brain scans. He said that the over activity in my brain causing my anxiety was “horrifying” and could only imagine how bad it would’ve been without my current meds. The comparisons between my brain and those of a normal brain are startling in their differences. He’s putting me on yet another medication with supplements- I’m excited but sceptical. I’ve already tried so many meds…. But what have I got to lose? I got so desperate to cut that I took apart my eyeliner pencil sharpener 🙁 It was a nice one too lol. There are some parts of me that are worried that this won’t work… But what if it does? I’ve lived with this my whole life… Will I be me when the monster is contained? I still want to die… More so than I’ve wanted in a long time…
BUT.
My story isn’t over yet, and neither is yours. I wish we could all join hands around a campfire and sing kum by ya and just enjoy being us. And we are all lucky enough to have found this place- a little place in this world for us. Thank you loves, for being you 🙂
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Take a Deep Breath,
yeah i hear you! you hear news like that and your like fuck no wonder! lets hope the new meds work, i was told i had severe arthritis in my back a month ago from a mri, i was shocked! i thought my back was just tired.
TaDB: this sounds really positive. I’m really happy to hear that someone in the medical community had underscored in some concrete fashion the pain you are in. Keep me updated! Very exiting.
This sounds so hopeful! Nice to see good news. Keep us informed ok.
I think it’s a good idea to try something new and see if it works. I agree with the others, keep us updated!
I’m rooting for you! ^__^