I am an international student in Philadelphia, USA. I have no job and I can’t pay tuition fees anymore. I can’t go back my country. I just want to die asap. I want to die peacefully. Thank you.
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You want to die simply because u cannot pay your tuition? There’s plenty of help. Go talk to your counselor. Go see someone who might be able to help place you at a job. There’s plenty of help and hope with your situation, it sounds like. Clean, sort recyclables. You can find something to keep your head above water, I’m confident.
Sorry to see that you are feeling so bad that you want to die. You must feel under a lot of pressure to succeed. I guess you have already tried finding work? Maybe you are not allowed to work as an international student but maybe there is illegal work to be found. Maybe that is not as simple to do as it is to type it.
Suicide is a bit of a permanent solution to the problem though. It is hard to suggest anything from the small amount of information in your post. You might feel better if you talk more about the situation and maybe knowing more about you we might have some useful advice.
I thought this everyday of my life.
Everyday I make plans for my exile.
If you are only having financial problems.
Then it is very minor.
You can change this so easily.
You just have to work hard.
So get up. And work hard. Solve your problem.
Be happy. Be alive. Stay & thrive.
I can’t work in here. i don’t have a social security number. i can’t have a job. H1B visa is very difficult. i’m sorry. I can’t consult with a counselor. i hate this school. They only care about money.I am really tired. I lost hope. i just want to die.
Do you have any family or friends to rely on?
I’m wondering why you can’t go back to your country.
It seems that there should always be friendship and assistance between us humans. But sadly, what is ideal is not what is real.
Do people genuinely care about the plight of others, especially a stranger? Sometimes, but I think it is exceptional when that happens. What do you think? Have you encountered anyone who cares about you? Do you care about anyone?
I don’t have any family. I don’t want to bother my friends. Why should i live for?
Its a dog eat dog world. Greed. People don’t care. The world is a cold harsh and cruel place.
Do you have any family you can talk to about this?
Oops. I meant people in society don’t care. Some people here do, but we can only do so much… I mean we can acknowledge that you are in a very bad situation
Thank you.
You make good points. Many people’s love have gone cold these days, sadly. I’m not about people stepping on people, but I do hope everyone does their best go around respecting one another.
*does their best and go around resp…
I understand, I thought that might be a problem with working. I can see that you have set your mind to suicide being the best option. I don’t know if you can’t return home because it is a war-torn mess or your family will literally kill you or sell you off into slavery or if you simply can’t face returning feeling like you have failed. If it is the one of the first three then you must find some agency that can help or find illegal work and become one of the many illegal aliens surviving in the USA. If it is a question of not being able to face returning due to a fear of failure I can tell you that I have had to do that and I survived it. I had promised myself that if things didn’t work out I would kill myself rather than return to my homeland. That didn’t work out (failed suicide attempt only made the situation worse) and I went back. It was pretty awful but not as bad as I thought it would be. At least all my old familiar places were there. I managed to get a job and eventually I left again. Sometimes suicide seems like the only answer but it doesn’t have to be that way. You are not thinking rationally or long term. Things might work out in unexpected ways. You have had the experience of living in North America. Maybe that was just one chapter of your book. Maybe the next few chapters will be awful and terrible but still, there are more chapters. It isn’t a good book that ends with suicide after only a few chapters. Better to become a wandering hobo eating from trash cans until finding a winning lottery ticket and living happily ever after. Suicide removes the option of things ever being okay and that is no good at all. Please try to connect with other people from your home land, that is the best way to get help. Please keep talking here. I wish you all the very best. Things haven’t gone the way you hoped but that is the experience of human life. Keep going no matter what.