They can have me? You dont even want me. Nobody does. I dont have shit. I never will have shit. I cant have a baby. I cant get nobody to actually give af about me. Im so fucking tired. I hate myself. I think i wanna start planning. I wanna do it right this time. No more waking up in the hostpital. I need this to work. I dont want to live anymore. Like im really thinking about putting myself in a situation where i can get killed. Someone could volunteer. I just need away out. Im tired of the pain.