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by Disposable Human

LOOKING FOR DMT OR MUSHROOMS. I LIVE IN TEXAS. AND WILL TRAVEL ANYWHERE IN THE LOWER US TO GET IT. I firmly believe it’ll cure my addiction, unlike Ben, who never had a shot.

You know you’re on your death bed when you cry as you dose yourself. I do it too. “Why do I do this to myself?” is a question that hurts so bad.

I want help. I just can’t get help without losing rights to my kid for the next decade by going to rehab (which has like a 98% fail rate anyway). I just need real help. I need a break, Please, someone, help me give this up.

I feel like I need DMT, Ayahuasca, or some really good mushrooms – I need one of those life changing trips into another dimension to find myself again… and figure out where I’m going in life . I want to see into the spirit world and find out why I’m too depressed to stop self-medicating with hard drugs. I want to fight my inner demons head on and cleanse my soul. I’m willing to drive to Dallas, Austin, Houston, any big city where someone could help me find some. Does anyone near Texas or the Ark LA Tex have any of the aforementioned psychedelics? I tried 5 hits of acid the other night and nothing happened, then found out I can’t trip on it because I take Zoloft ๐Ÿ™ FML.

The people that drove me to this don’t deserve to see me suffer this badly. I need the strength to fight, They don’t deserve this luxury.

 

P.S. If anyone bilingual knows how to get in touch with the Seri Tribe in Mexico for a healing ritual, please let me know. If I live another two weeks, it’ll be a miracle. Thanks for reading, any help is greatly appreciated. I’m not trying to do anything illegal, I’m trying to save my fucking life.

 

Just comment below and I’ll post my email.

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Morris 1/3/2016 - 8:02 am

Interesting.
My sister flew to Peru and did Ayahuasca with shamans in the Amazon forest. She says the experience changed her life permanently.
Was it just her on drugs, or did she experience some sort of breakthrough?
*shrugs* Who knows.
Texas has great BBQ. I miss that TX smoked brisket and ribs plate.

(I’ve only done ‘shrooms and LSD).

Disposable Human 1/3/2016 - 10:54 am

Thanks for replying and especially for sharing the location your sister participated in the ceremony. I’ll honestly look into it.

If you ever get close to NE Texas, post on here. I’ll buy you all the smoked meats you can eat, and all the beer you can drink. Then I’ll call some hookers to show you some real southern hospitality. It’ll be fun.

Thanks Morris, take care.

nicole123 1/3/2016 - 12:01 pm

My friends and I used to buy LSD offline off the Silk Road website . It was some hard shit too. I took 3 tabs at once and literally was having a crazy ass awakening . But I didn’t like it. It made me think way too much. I think the Silk Road got taken down , but I know there’s a new website I just forget the name, it might be blue dot? Research. It’s secure so the DEA can’t get to it . The Silk Road was up for yeeeeears. But as for dmt , you could probably find it somewhere around you where you live. My ex boyfriend did it and had a crazy religious experience. You can’t even move when you do it . I think you fall asleep. I’m going to try mushrooms too. I think it could help me. I have no hope anymore . But defiantly look online to find the website . People post reviews too. I’ll research and I’ll post if I figure out the name.

Wish you well!

Hazy Day Sunflower 1/3/2016 - 1:55 pm

@disposable human: this video was amazing. Thank you for sharing it. You are an amazing person too, just for reaching out. We all have our own unique coping strategies in life. Yours seem a little less orthodox than most peoples.

I used to work in a methadone clinic. For years. I worked with HIV+ people who were speedballing or strung out. They were and still are some of the most generous and wonderful people I have ever known. I can’t point you in the right direction for drugs. I wouldn’t even know where to start, I left that life behind a long time ago. About three times a month I miss it terribly, just the utter abandon of living life on the edge with no ties to anyone.

I wish I could help you. I can’t. Have you tried going to a methadone clinic? Some are great. They practice harm reduction, well the really good ones do at least, meeting you where you are and keeping you safe to explore how to live in your own skin, sometimes all at once, mostly little bite sized pieces that are easily digestible. Thank you for sharing this. It really resonated with me. Please keep safe, Texas is no place to try to live an alternative lifestyle.

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