I wish people cared more for others instead of just worrying about themselves .
I wish I could meet someone who doesn’t see me as a sexual item (including men and women , they’re both just as bad). I feel like whenever I go, people just see me as this dumb girl who will give her self up to someone so easily .
Fuck, I just wish someone was infatuated with my mind instead of my body. I want to have deep conversations with people. I want to talk about things people are passionate for. I don’t mind someone thinking I’m beautiful , but I don’t want that to be the only thing they have to think of me .
I just want to feel a connection with people. I’ve never had a real connection with a significant other or a friend. I can’t say that I’ve ever had a best friend either . That’s something I’d love to have . A girl friend . Someone who can be with me while I’ll cry and who can be adventurous with me.
But I also have this urge for someone to love me.
I’m just alone. I’m alone through all of this pain . I don’t have someone to cry to. Or talk to about my feelings . I don’t have that kind of money to see a therapist at a moment . I really don’t know what to do.
I’m just angry that people don’t care to listen. I don’t think I’ll ever find someone who wants me for what’s inside of me , not what is on the outside .
I have such a big heart for people . I wish more saw that in me .
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Aww I hope you find someone who alpreciated you for you. I know eveything today is about image and perception but I blindly hope this will change in the coming years as everybody realises how fake certain aspects of life can be.
I have to admit, growing up, many of my friends didnt like thenidea of dating intelligent girls for the very reason that the conversations get deep etc. It baffled me. Who doesnt want to chat about lifes nuances or the universe…or quantum mechanics? Hey ho their loss imo
I really hope so too . Thank you . And I know . I don’t know how someone wouldn’t want someone that can get on a deeper level with them.
Sometimes it’s not about people accepting us for who we are inside but you accepting yourself. Let go of that need to find acceptance in the world. Most days you won’t get it. You’ll find a special someone someday that gets you and understand who you are in the inside. But also be prepared for that to be taken away. That’s where the hurt really starts. I truly hope you feel better. *hugs*
I have actually been trying to find love for myself . It’s hard but I’m trying
I can relate. I think we all are in some ways. If not we would be here sharing our inner darkest thought with total strangers. (:
I think people judge a book by its cover because…. well, it’s the cover. Unless people do some digging or you show them your depths, all they have to go on is pretty much your appearance (which also does communicate quite a lot).
The most amazing person I ever met, I didn’t realise it at first at all. This person kept showing me how special they were by listening and loving deeds. I was so far up my own arse, trying to keep up with this fast-paced world, that I would have missed the exit had that person not patiently slowed me down and pointed it out.
@muspelhem
I loved how you described that. A simple way of actually seeing someone that made a huge difference. Slowing you down enough to see what’s important. I hope someone sees me as beautifuly as that.
“Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.”