I went into the store tonight and bought some sleeping pills. I’ve done this before. But tonight feels different. I want to do it. But I’m scared. But I don’t want to live anymore. You see, I was raised a Christian. Tonight, my mom found out that I like girls. Well, I’m a girl. I had to tell her due to the fact she found out I skipped work tonight.. So I was already in trouble for that….. She asked me why I skipped and I tried to explain with the usual there was drama at work, but she wouldn’t let that be all. Probably because it wasn’t. My ex works there and she has been talking to the girl I was talking to…. And now all I get are these terrible looks and I know they’re talking about me. So I skipped work. And here I am. I have the pills and am about to write a few letters to my friends and family. Can someone please just help me get the guts to do this? I can’t be here anymore and I just need someone to tell me it’s okay to do what I’m doing.
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Don’t do it. You can’t. There are people who love you. If you want to talk, my kik is pieface102
I’m staying neutral on this one but if you need to talk or need any coping advice SP is the place for it. Everyone here has a lot of experience to share
hey. i’ve been there before. this morning, actually.
i really want to die, but i wasnt able to do it. but this isnt about me at all.
your life matters so much, so dont you fucking dare kill yourself
you are way more important than you realize
It is against the rules of this forum to assist you with this. No p@rtners. No m3thods (no hate)
Your mother has violated the basic tenant of parenting. It is the job of adults to care for their children and love them in a manner that is accepting and unconditional. I would argue that it is the job of all adults to love all children, but the very basic is that they unconditionally love their own children. I would argue your mother is absolutely not a Christian if she has any opinion at all regarding your sexual preference. You were born that way, and you are absolutely perfect the way you are.
If you can leave there. Get as far away as possible. The situation sounds toxic. There are so many people out there that will accept you exactly as you were born, and not a hair differently. Please give yourself some time. You are not what your misguided “christian” mother says you are. You may notice that I put “christian” in quotes. Because she is no Christian I would want to know.
Stay and talk here. There are lots of people who have walked in your shoes. Gay, lesbian, bi-bi-sexual, transgender, gay transgender (yes there is such a thing as being gay transgender) an some garden variety straight folks. what we all have in common is our pain. That and on a whole this community is amazingly accepting.
Welcome to SP.
Actually I do have this to add, one of my friends, she came out a few years ago and her father is Muslim. Eventually I think he got over himself but what I’m trying to say is there are people who’ve been in situations similar to yours and there are peope in the world who don’t judge and will accept you and will love you for you. I will also add, suicide can be a solution but it isn’t always the best solution and it is perminent so please, please don’t act on impulse because things can turn out for the better, given a little time.
I see on your profile that you describe yourself as “secretly sad”. Have you always been sad? And always in secret? Does your mom know that you are sad?
How did your mom react tonight when you told her that you like girls?
It wont work sweetie, taking simply an overdose of sleeping pills doesnt work. I’ve tried that one a few times with varying quantities. And i know im not supposed to tell you methods that might work so i wont, but i do know that overdosing on sleeping pills does not.
you need to face your co-workers. What r they going to do if they find out about you? kill you? no..! they wouldn’t care because they are not Angels!!! They also wud have had done ton’s of things.
Try to be more nice with your mother, and you both will be okay.
Why do you wanna kill yourself for the mistakes of others?..It’s your life, live it proudly..
reply me if you need really, really unique skills to cope with your problems.
Hey, don’t do this. You have your whole life ahead of you. Your mother may not accept you for being gay and this is unacceptable. But you have the strength to get past this. Trust me