Look any type of pills is useless I’ve over dosed many times and I wanted to die bad but the pain from being nautious and anxiety made me chicken out. And I had to stay in the hospital for 6 days because of the Tylenol so uncomfortable I regret it. Besides it takes 72 hours for the over does to be fatal no one can hide for that long while bleeding and in pain. People care if families don’t neighbors community they care trust me. I care I know what it’s like but my problem was I had no one to talk to
Do I even deserve to talk to anyone about my pathetic problems? My existence is so pointless and worthleess i should just end it. ive talked to my sister but I don’t want her to worry cause she’s got enough on her plate. I really really wish a cancer patient or a child in a third world country couldve goten the opportunities I have because I’m just wasting it right now.
I’m also probably gonna fail my exams because I can’t study or concentrate. I’m just a fucking failure with no goals or purpose. I really do try to see the beauty of life and I try to be grateful but its hard when you hate yourself this much.
I won’t reiterate what PP’s stated about pills, nor will I ask you not to do this, my please won’t change how you feel either since you have absolutely no emotional bond with me.
What I will say is this:
If you are hell bent on killing yourself, then at least do a mental inventory. Is there anything in this world you would want to do, given unlimited resources? I’d go to Tokyo or perhaps Korea. I have a friend in New Zealand I’d like to visit, and one in Chile. Before I off myself I’m going to make damn sure those two friends are given a proper visit, it is the least I can do. So two trips over seas….can’t hurt. If I’m going to kill myself anyway, why not finish off the things that I really want to do.
So what do you want to do in this life? Not what your family says you have to do, or you think you have no choice but to do. No, what do you want, really want? Is it an intimate relationship of some sort? Is it to see Big Bend State park or go to the top of the Sears Building in Chicago? What is it? Maybe kiss that cute girl in Government Class? (wish I kissed that cute boy on New Years Eve, I should have just gone for it and damn what the relatives think). Is there even one thing you want to do, no matter how minor?
Then do it. Absolutely no reason not to. Killing yourself isn’t going anywhere after all. You can always kill yourself later on, in a week or year. The only thing in your way is living right? So check off all those things before exiting this world. Given enough resources I would do so fucking much before offing myself. Then I would go to Mustang Island in Texas with a very lethal something and paint the sand red, letting the ghost crabs clean up after me.
So live for a while, no regrets, no looking back, no guilt, then see if you still want to kill yourself. By then you might have come up with an even more ingenious plan.
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Look any type of pills is useless I’ve over dosed many times and I wanted to die bad but the pain from being nautious and anxiety made me chicken out. And I had to stay in the hospital for 6 days because of the Tylenol so uncomfortable I regret it. Besides it takes 72 hours for the over does to be fatal no one can hide for that long while bleeding and in pain. People care if families don’t neighbors community they care trust me. I care I know what it’s like but my problem was I had no one to talk to
Do I even deserve to talk to anyone about my pathetic problems? My existence is so pointless and worthleess i should just end it. ive talked to my sister but I don’t want her to worry cause she’s got enough on her plate. I really really wish a cancer patient or a child in a third world country couldve goten the opportunities I have because I’m just wasting it right now.
I’m also probably gonna fail my exams because I can’t study or concentrate. I’m just a fucking failure with no goals or purpose. I really do try to see the beauty of life and I try to be grateful but its hard when you hate yourself this much.
Please don’t. The chances are it won’t even work. They are not worth it.
Pills didn’t work for me either, neither did cutting.
All it did was make things worse.
I won’t reiterate what PP’s stated about pills, nor will I ask you not to do this, my please won’t change how you feel either since you have absolutely no emotional bond with me.
What I will say is this:
If you are hell bent on killing yourself, then at least do a mental inventory. Is there anything in this world you would want to do, given unlimited resources? I’d go to Tokyo or perhaps Korea. I have a friend in New Zealand I’d like to visit, and one in Chile. Before I off myself I’m going to make damn sure those two friends are given a proper visit, it is the least I can do. So two trips over seas….can’t hurt. If I’m going to kill myself anyway, why not finish off the things that I really want to do.
So what do you want to do in this life? Not what your family says you have to do, or you think you have no choice but to do. No, what do you want, really want? Is it an intimate relationship of some sort? Is it to see Big Bend State park or go to the top of the Sears Building in Chicago? What is it? Maybe kiss that cute girl in Government Class? (wish I kissed that cute boy on New Years Eve, I should have just gone for it and damn what the relatives think). Is there even one thing you want to do, no matter how minor?
Then do it. Absolutely no reason not to. Killing yourself isn’t going anywhere after all. You can always kill yourself later on, in a week or year. The only thing in your way is living right? So check off all those things before exiting this world. Given enough resources I would do so fucking much before offing myself. Then I would go to Mustang Island in Texas with a very lethal something and paint the sand red, letting the ghost crabs clean up after me.
So live for a while, no regrets, no looking back, no guilt, then see if you still want to kill yourself. By then you might have come up with an even more ingenious plan.