I failed again :(all they did was forcefully pump pills from my stomach and ship me off to a mental hospital for three days worth nothing. I drew a picture on the wall with a girl with a noose and they thought to keep me longer but mom wanted me home. Wish she would have left me there.now i have to contemplate doing it again cause its not gonna stop till im dead.but i wish it would. Pills are useless.i need to be more creative. I will try drinking dishwasher soap this time . though I don’t know when. And i hope these are my final few post in the next coming months
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Pills wont do it. Neither will drinking soapy water. Just to let you know it wont happen that way.
The human body is designed to survive so it can take a lot before death comes. Doing stuff like that just messes you up temporarily and then you wind up feeling like crap and having your stomach pumped like you did already.
Spare yourself the grief of winding up in the hospital again. Why not try to put your effort into making your life better instead of having this desire to die. Why not? Make some drastic changes to your life. Try a whole new approach to life. Youll have plenty of time to be dead after your life is over.. but for now. Learn to live and live happy. Happiness is achievable. You just got to put some effort into it. What is it about life that is ailing you so much?
This is going to be very direct: Why do you want to die? Let me try to help you.
I’m just going to tell you its your life it’s your choice. But that doesn’t mean it will only affect you and I’m sure you know that. Killing yourself will be a mistake that you will never be able to fix, and even if you’re not around to feel that guilt, others will take that guilt in your place. Please keep trying to live, even if its selfish of everyone to ask.
Im so fucking scared of losing everyone else to death i can’t handle it i figure i will go crazy if i don’t take myself out of the picture as soon as possible.it would be perfectly normal but ive never lost anyone and i cant stop thinking about it in going mad
Try to let go of the things you cannot control. Live in the moment and make the most of every day with those loved ones while you have them. I’ve had awesome people come and go in my life and I appreciated/was grateful for the time I had with them, but I held onto them loosely so that when they did have to be taken away, my hands didn’t need to be pried and it didn’t hurt as much.
People reach out here for a reason; they are looking for possible hope and answers and places like this exist for those reasons. I really don’t like it when people say that, “It’s his or her life, don’t try to encourage them to live!” Then why did they post here? Just my little rant of the day for being an SP vet.