I tried to love myself. I tried to have confidence myself. But I couldn’t. And I can’t. I decided to kill myself as soon as possible. This is not temporary feeling. I been thinking about suicide since when I was 11. I couldn’t commit suicide because I lived with my family. Now I live by myself. So I can decide anything by myself. I’m scared of suicide. But I’m tied of pretending that everything is fine. And no one cares about me even if I cry. They don’t want to get in trouble. So they ignore. I’ve cared about friends, family … When they had problems, I tried to help them and think about them so much. Now I feel I just wasted spent my time.
If someone asks me ” are you ok?”, that words make me saved. But no one asks me like that… This world sucks… There is no hope. There is no future…
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I feel your pain yuko0319
I’m right here with you if you need someone to talk too
Thank you for your comment. I always feel I’m worthless … But your comment makes me feel better
hey yuko0319 I know what you are going through been there with my own family and in-laws for me it was like when they wanted something or needed help I was always there but when my turn came to ask it was like they all turned their backs on me like I was a peace of rubbish its like hey here is no help for you here go somewhere else don’t bother us with your stupid problems we don’t wanna know about it but ja my dad passed away when I was still very young so my mom raise me and my adopted sister (that *****) to the best she could but when my mom passed away 4 years ago it was like my whole family died as well haven’t seen or heard from them since and they all stay near me ja if you need some one to lend an ear im here
i am sorry about your family… and thank you for telling me your story here.
i am still weak and broken…
i feel really sorry for both yuko and dolphin, and yes it is reality of life, same things happened with me too, but just try not to expect any help from anyone, i know it’s very much hard to follow in reality, don’t let them hurt you, change your thinking and everything is going to change, do medidation, calm your mind and focus on other important things of your life.
Ive attempted suicide multiple times but a couple days ago i found out something so horrible hes like my brother hes been more of a brother to me than my own since u was 10 he did cocaine took pills i tried stopping him from the drugs but i couldnt he got arrested when he was 20 & he got out 22 & i didnt know i didnt know he was out he got out may something & i havent seen or hears from him i didnt a know thing about where he was i thought he was still arrested 7 months later 3 days ago i find out he passed away his heart stopped because of all the cocaine i missed the funeral & he got cremated i been crying since i found out i wish i could of prevented this i feel its all my fault & i feel so ungrateful for trying to take my own life because of my personal issues he deserved to live im going through depression at the moment so please live your life to the fullest your not promised tomorrow its not worth it when you die its like falling asleep never waking up none of that hell or heaven is real if you actually think about it so think twice & always remember nothing is as bad as it seams all you have to do is look on the bright side & make the best of it