We all have a different pain threshold and I have exceeded mine. I have planned my suicide, I have written a couple of notes and I am just waiting till I am home alone and I will do it. I attempted suicide early in the week and failed. Self preservation is really hard to get over, for me it requires a lot of strength and at the time I was weak, crying, crying and more crying. But now I can feel I can get over it. I am almost looking forward to death. No more suffering or pain. I’m quite excited.
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Hi. Your post just now appeared; it must have been in moderation for 2 hours?
It seems that self-preservation wins most of the time, but not all of the time. If you don’t have anyone you can talk to about your pain, perhaps talking about it here will help to ease the pain somewhat.
Our human innate nature seems to need expression of our inner thoughts and feelings. I use to think I could be completely alone and be satisfied not talking to anyone. But the pain builds up inside to the point of combustion.
Maybe talking here on SP will help your pain.
I don’t really know :/
Stay or go sounds right, i was alone with no one to talk to.. I was all built up for months. I was gonna do it. But found this site instead and everybody helped me talk and post it out. I may be miserable alot of the time but im so glad everybody helped me talk and that im here
Was there anything particular that caused you to exceed your pain threshold?
An out of the blue break of with my first love. It was both our first love and it came at a time where we were both (well i thought anyway happy) A few weeks away from our anniversary. I knew she wasn’t happy in herself but I didn’t think that I was the problem. Since the break up a couple of months ago, I have gathered serious depression and I want to die. I can’t cope with the pain anymore.
Romantic love break-ups are wrenching and often consume our being for what seems like infinity. I’ve often thought it would be nice if we could put our agony on Fast Forward. Having experienced much agony in my life, I do know that time eases the pain. The pain may never completely go away, but it does diminish. That doesn’t help NOW, though. What seems to help in the current time is to vent about the pain. Stuffing the pain just seems to not allow release of the pain.
I feel you Another. I felt the sameway until i got here.
Let it out let it out. I cried everytime i did