4th Jan 2016
I’m currently having some severe symptoms of anxiety (or which I think severe, but may not be so).
Feeling low again, extremely low..
I need someone to talk to.. someone to hug. I’m not even strong enough to cry right now.
I know I should go to a doctor for the satisfaction of my mind’s queries. I cannot answer them all by myself.
What should I do? What should I do??
Panic…. Panic….
I think my life is over. My life is literally over.
I’m telling honestly, from my heart.
I feel like I cannot cope with all the problems I have. My life feels to be really empty.
I am waiting for the time when my life would officially be over (death).
Is this it??? I cannot believe!
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Why are you feeling so low?
Because of anxiety. It is driving me crazy..
Why are you feeling the anxiety. I will listen if you want to go into detail. Or are you anxious just because you are? Why is your life over, why are you suffering? As you mentioned up above
I have various psychological disorders like – anxiety, panic disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), etc. They have collectively made my mind out of control.
I had seen a doctor (psychiatrist) and he had put me on medication (fludac) and had a counselling. I felt okay for a few days. But, later the same disorders started kicking me badly.
Now I am thinking of going to doctor again.
But my condition now is really miserable. I mean, really..
Anxiety has held me back in my life. It’s awful to panic and feel completely out of control. When you’re afraid to leave the house and interact with people, it stops you from progressing. Since my psychiatrist is weaning me off anti-anxiety medicine, I’ve taken it into my own hands. I won’t say how, but I’ve been getting really powerful anti-anxiety medicine that makes klonopin as useless as candy.
The problem is now I’m addicted to it because it feels so good and I take too much. I fall and don’t remember. I don’t even remember eating my mom’s dinner last night. I had already ate mine. This is totally out of character for me. I would never do something like that. Now my granny and family are disappointed in me. I just need to slow it down. I feel so so bad. You’d think I killed someone instead of eating someone’s dinner. That’s how much guilt I put on myself.
And now I will forever be the one they point to when food goes missing. That the worst part. Usually I don’t do that, but now it’ll be like “She probably ate it like it’s a fact. I’m so pissed at myself.
Well, I am happy that you’ve recovered from anxiety.
Although you’re having side effects of medication, this is much better than having anxiety.
Also, there is no need to feel guilty since you and your family know the reason behind your act..
Thank you for your kind words. I can’t say I’ve recovered, just covered it up with pills, but hey, better than nothing as long as I stop taking so many. I wish I had a real answer for you. Exercise really fights off those bad feelings, but when you go out into the world, you still have to face people and that uneasy feeling. You should ask your doc about a good anti-anxiety medicine. Explain your dire situation. It works wonders when you need to deal with people. Just don’t overdo it.
I’ve had severe anxiety issues my whole life as well, I feel your struggle. Maybe post specific anxieties you’re struggling with the most. This way they are In solid order and not flying all around your head and would give a sense of control. Sometimes we need another’s perspective so we can see clearer. It’s not easy and I hope you find some relief for your troubles.
Thanks Dungeon. My mind/brain has become so complex that I cannot apparently sort out all my anxieties and work on them individually. I don’t even know whether it is possible.
I know that feeling very well. But the best thing we can do is to keep trying. Even if you can’t work on them immediately just getting those troubles off your chest will be helpful
Just want to say never get addicted to anti-anxiety medicine. Working out daily helps a lot to balance your emotions and get rid of that nervous energy. I’ve been working out and feel great, but after, feel the need to pop pills anyway. I need to just focus on the working out part and leave pills alone unless I’m leaving my house and have to be in a social situation.
Going back to the doctor and explaining what’s bothering you is a good idea. I hope you find a solution.
Thanks.
I’ve also heard that exercise helps overcome anxiety. I tried to exercise 4-5 days a week. But sometimes, my anxiety becomes worse during exercise. I don’t know why.