I really fucked myself up this time. I cut my thumb really deep trying to cut up the block of cocoa butter on the bed since I don’t have my own kitchen to work in like a normal person. It’s only maybe a half an inch long so if I went to the ER they wouldn’t do anything. I’ve had 2 inch deep bite wounds and been turned away untreated. It wouldn’t stop bleeding and it is deep. I put liquid bandage on it which hurt like hell. But it’s too short to get stitched. 1. I hate that I’m such a failure and can’t do anything right. Everyone else can work with their hands but me and it makes me feel literally retarded, as in mentally incapacitated against being able to do very normal and routine things. And like an idiot, I keep thinking this will improve?!? 2. I really wish I could have my own place. The people I’m renting from have been great but I’ve felt like there’s been some tension over food/kitchen lately and this is precisely why I don’t believe in sharing food. I had given everything I had for food,and food was not bought. Then I’ve been kind of told what to do (or not do) last times making food, so you know what? It’s just my nature to avoid this and take care of myself. I grew up the same way. I’m sick of fighting for food and the right to be in a kitchen. I’m highly sensitive to and easily stressed by this! I obviously need to melt via double boiler style, my ingredients for making body butter and pain cream. I wanted to prep by measuring things out in my bedroom but that’s really not safe, obviously. I get the sense there would be strong opposition to working with non food items since food is cooked almost daily. And I’m really sensitive to having someone over my shoulder with instructions too. I come from an extremely perfectionist family and my family wouldn’t let the people I rent from on the kitchen either, because my family thinks you fail if you get so much as a drop of food on the counter, stove, floor, etc. Anyway,here’s a picture looking at it outside the bandage. These band aids keep falling off because it’s like my thumb is excreting oil. The cut goes under the nail, too.
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Please keep it sanitized. Failure only constitutes to success later on. Don’t give up. People are always going to be against you. Letting them win is pointless.
The liquid bandage is an antiseptic also raw cocoa butter and the oils I had on my hands from it are natural antiseptics. But still I worry. I’m going to hope it stays closed until I get off work tomorrow so I can go to Walgreens and buy my own liquid bandage stuff.
Please do. Use breathable bandages.
Those things can happen to everyone, even to the most skillful people. I’ve been working with xacto knifes, soldering iron and stuff like that for years by now, and every once in a while i still get a burn/cut due to *whatever*. Manual abilities are highly improvable btw, so just keep at it by being careful. I always sucked at manual labor and eventually i ended up becoming decent enough to do tech repairs and kit modelling (which deals with tiny stuff) so i i can get better, meh, everyone can.
anyone could have done this. I have worked with chef knives for years and still occasionally I lop the end of my finger off. Nothing hurts worse than a finger injury. so many nerve endings. Plus the blood, it’s like a mortal wound. Keep it dry and clean. I’d not advise liquid bandage, it is too deep. You really want it to breath, just close it with a butterfly bandage or strip of band aid and then wrap it in another bandaid with antiseptic ointment.