So, I found out that my family find out about me. They find out how vulnerable I am. They found that I’m not mentally healthy.
And I find out that they find out quite a time ago.
I should be something ; angery, nervous, anxious. I can also cry, i can be relived I can be worried but I have no feelings. Neither this thing hurt me nor it gave comfort to me. I’m exactly like I was a minute before. Caught in an argument, they confronted, I refused and went to my room. No talk.
It’s kinda funny situation. 😀 Her child is in pain, she didn’t even asked again.
I found out that my mother find out that I’m pain yet she didn’t care to talk. I should have some feelings, but nothing.
Both parties ignored each other. 🙂
It’s kinda funny, isn’t it ? 😀
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Anyways, she is a very good mother. She really took very good care of me. I know she is worried. I know she is going thru very bad phase since she lost her husband. (But she is not the only one who lost someone that day. I also lost my father that day. My father was very polite and generous man.) I know she is alone and her only son doesn’t even listen to her.
Headche is pacing up and my left ear is beating like a heart.
Maby they are not saying anything because they dont know what to do or because they are scared. Thats another sad thing about whats going on with us is the fact that people are so scared that they feel like they cant do anything so they just dont. Which makes it worse. I hope you get what you need. They do care about you im sure you know that.
Thanks for advice. 🙂
But I had enough of this crap that I don’t know how to face you now ?
Oh ! I am so sad for you. 🙁 you was going thru alot. I am sorry. I wasn’t there. Actually I was so afraid to face you. I don’t know what to do. How to talk to you.
Do you want to know how much time I had this crap… sorry I can’t remember. But I guess 4-5 times. I believed in those guys so much. We used to be friends. I was always there for them whenever they needed me. But when I needed, no one was here.
And when I confronted them that I needed you and you wasn’t there. I got this crappy reply.
I guess it’s two weeks earlier I had some similar conversation with my so called old friend and instead of apologising he blamed me. That was something new. 🙂
Enough of me now.
If you find this reply annoying or hateful. I am sorry. Sometimes my words seems like I’m yelling at ones but I’m not.
With you, I was just sharing my emotions.
Happiness and peace for you. 🙂
And you was right about her. I think probably she is scared to talk.
Your reply opened me a little bit. 🙂
I guess you deserve some more smileys. 🙂
Happiness 🙂 🙂 🙂 & Peace 🙂 🙂 🙂
I agree with 20085- maybe your mom doesn’t know how to talk to you or even knowing if you’d want to talk to her.
My parents didn’t know about all my mental health issues until recently (they knew I had depression in high school, but didn’t know that it never got better and how bad it was/is). While they have talked to me and tried to understand what I’m going through, they still don’t really know how to talk to me or about depression- they actually arranged for us to talk to a therapist together.
I’m not saying you and your mom need to do that, but her not talking to you may not be due to lack of wanting to, but just not knowing how. She may also feel guilty that she didn’t know you were struggling and she still doesn’t know how to help. Maybe she is expecting you to take the lead in what and how you want to talk. Starting the conversation, even though it doesn’t feel fair that you have to be the one to do it, might help her talk to you by showing that you want to talk to her and are willing to help her figure out how she can help (and not be hurtful by saying things like “I’m so sorry” or “just be positive”). It’s also possible she’s struggling with own mental health after losing her husband. It’s hard to know how to help someone else when you feel like you can’t (or can barely) help yourself.
I hope things get easier for you.
I know this. She is really a good mother. She used to take care of me like a child even though I was so grown up and I know she still cares alot. But now she is so alone. No one talk at home. And she also have some health issues. I know this is very hard for her. I can understand this.
I really hope that, that therapist thing works for you. Hopefully soon you will be fine. 🙂