So I’m struggling with my bipolar currently. But I had an extremely severe allergic reaction (to the point where I nearly died confused, scared, and in pain) so I’m not looking at medication as an answer. But, currently I’ve been thinking about suicide. Just stepping outside in the below zero weather with no coat, and waiting. That may not be the best method, but it’s the one I’ve been fantasizing about.
I’m not sure if I should bring this up to my councilor though, since I am not actively seeking death. I just am fixated by it currently. I’ve been looking into the sea of trees. I would go there, if I were to go through with it. And as a broke college student that is a very unlikely trip.