I tried to kill myself last Tuesday. I don’t remember anything except waking up in the hospital. This was my third attempt. How do I keep surviving? I pray so much that my prayers are me actually begging God to help me. Still no answers. Am I here to be punished? People speak of a hell after we die. Does it really exist or is this really hell and there is nothing after this. I want to believe so bad there is something good after this hell i’m in on this earth.
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I’ve heard one must pray for peace. I mean, one must pray for the general idea, not for an specific solution. If you believe, then you know nothing ends up as we wish but as is best for us. And that’s complicated because we can’t always seem to wait an eternity for thing to improve. So we have to pray for patience , and that’s ironic because we have been waiting and doing a lot of things our entire lives and everything seem as bad as always. But then again it shows nothing is over yet and that we need patience.
So I’ve been choosing peace over death in my prayers lately, because they are not the same, and I want the desperation to end… it’s been so lately and sometimes it does work… sometimes my pain does diminish, and It feels great, and even if it’s for a few minutes, what is important is peace, so it’s worthy.
Don’t pray to God, God doesn’t exist. You are still here because you haven’t find a method which works 100%, not to suffer. Find a method which works and leave everything behind you.
I notice a lot of females attempt suicide The statistics were right females attempt suicide 3 times more than males but males who attempt suicide are 4 times likely to succeed. It doesn’t prove anything really but trying to die peacefully is not always a 100% success because there are always chance that you can live but become a vegetable that’s a really sad way to fail an attempt.Above all deep down in my heart who ever you are I’m glad your still here feel better.Try what hazy suggests death from living is 100% success
If becoming a vegetable means no thoughts and no pain because of no thought then be it so. My suicidal side is getting stronger and stronger everyday (I tried a week ago, but failed, now I am waiting for my money and I will do it again, but I chose an other way.), so I have got to a point where I describe success differently as before.
It’s true being a vegetable is pain free from depression still I don’t see why families should have to suffer to see that. Wow intresting Nidda how you are actually encouraging this. You think I’m not just as suicidal as you are of course I am. But I’m trying to get over myself from it. As for me I dont play I have a few methods that are painless 100% proof however I will never in my life give that information out. I’d never forgive myself. So all I do is pray for the best for everyone including myself and talk high of what little life has to offer so I’d suggest you not encourage yourself or anyone. Be strong. I have faith in even you *pats you on the shoulder* it’s alright your not alone in this unfair life others deal with the same
As being suicidal myself, I think if I told anybody that ‘Oh, please don’t kill yourself, life is precious, you have to live, move on, seek for help…’ and stuff like that, I would be a fucking hypocrit. And please feel free to correct me if I am wrong.
I don’t think I am encouriging anyone but I won’t be a hypocrit in order to save people from themselves. I know there is a thin line between crime and what I do.
Correction : if you don’t want to lie. It’s really good. Honesty is so rare these days, the whole world is full of fucking liars & backstabbers.
But i think you shouldn’t say that there is no hope. Because there is always a hope. 🙂
Sorry if I offended you. And obviously I could be wrong also. But thing is that, right now things are going pretty well with my LuV. 🙂
So these days sometimes I kinda feel happy 🙂 & hopeful. 🙂 and sometimes only happy. 🙂
Actually my deamons are in sleep mode. 😛
I will give you credit that you stuck a nerve(which very few can manage to do to me) ok so as I calm down i will tell you that hands down both you and I are very limited we wouldn’t be this much on edge. So I don’t want to argue being the reason that we both go over our limits where even our coping resources can’t help us. Even though this is a forum and I can’t physically see you it doesn’t make no difference when things like that are worded out precisely like the way you just did. So if I were to word out my side I’d never forgive myself later. I still think you are wrong and foul in this conversation so I’d rather be a hypocrite over being the reason that encouraged someone to kill themselves because in the end they succeed and you didn’t. meaning easy said than done and I don’t we need to live with that
Thank for your copy and paste.
Glad we agree
@ teressa45 : that was sad. Hope soon you will recover health wise as well as emotion wise.
I can remember that sad horrifying as well relaxing last moment when you close your eyes and think finally I’m gonna find peace and after few hours when you feel like waking up. All you can think is that I am dead, I am dead. God please tell me it’s afterlife. I am dead. But when you slowly open your eyes, All that can come out of your mouth is, “what the fuck !”
1st I’m not even dead.
2nd I have done some serious physical damage.
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3rd I have to endure family drama and pain.
I can understand how you are feeling now. Sometimes it is hard to recover after an attempt. So I would suggest you to talk to someone who is really close to you or you could have some professional psychology advice.
And if you don’t feel like or can’t do either of that.
Then I would suggest. Change you environment. Have some holidays.
Be safe.I will pray for you. I want you to find your peace but not in dying. It should be in life. And that’s true, life has endless possibilities.
Peace & lots of happiness for you. 🙂
I personally believe that for better or worse this life is the only shot we have. I can’t accept the idea of a benevolent all-merciful deity that would give people heartbreaking pain in their short lives, and then punish them for all eternity when it becomes unbearable. Live your life to the fullest you are able, and don’t worry about what happens next.