I’ve been crying, cried myself to sleep. I feel so scared, so anxious and overwhelmed. I feel emotionally drained and I don’t know how to do anything.
I’m scared I can’t function enough to be in school right now, I can’t stand another setback. But I already missed one class, and haven’t even started the homework due on thursday, and I don’t know how I’m going to get through the semester without my stats professor seeing me cry (I want to try to get a recommendation from him). I don’t know how I’m going to get my homework done. I feel too scared to think clearly, scared to even approach it.
And there’s no one to talk to. Normally I would talk to my ex (then fiance) and just telling her how I felt made me feel better, just having her be willing to watch tv with me helped. But now I’m alone. There’s my parents, I guess, but I don’t want them to think I have to drop out of school or think I’m any more fragile (crazy) than they already think I am. My friends, all long distance, can only say so much. or understand.
I miss her so much today. Her absence hurts so much.