The one aspect that truly defeats me further when I’m already down is inability to connect and converse with people. It’s just not about having a basic conversation, it’s about fluid connection, something that comes very natural to so many people and yet I’m so terrible at it.
Sorry in advance for the following pessimistic outlook.
Even on this site I notice that people form friendships and root for each other, meanwhile I’m just ending up being a lurker feeling like I’m more fucked up than anyone else. I’m unable to add a proper comment, all I can do is write something very generic or explain something that I already know. No wonder social media scared me so much.
I just want to check out of life. It’s pretty obvious that I’m not good at it and I feel like I tried long enough. Wish you could just explain that to a physician and after seeing that your struggling AND your miserable then they could help you end it.
FML
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I’ll root for you.
I’ve not been around this site for long, but I’d wager many others here would as well.
Connecting with people certainly isn’t easy, and for those of us who dislike or are ashamed or even frightened of who we are it’s even more daunting. How could anyone look past the terrible things we hate and find something worth knowing? How could we even dare to hope someone could?
But we’re all here. Our situations have brought us together to this little corner of the web. You’re certainly not alone here.
For what it’s worth, I can only hope I managed to impart what I was trying to. I’ve never been good with people, either. And hey, you’ve started more basic conversations on this site than I have.
See you around, as it goes.
You are so special. The one thing with social media and technology is that it often leaves people feeling depressed, because the pictures and posts people put up on their social media is always the best part of their lives. Nobody’s ever going to post on Facebook or Instagram “I feel depressed today.” It’s the same thing with comments on this site; it’s easy to look at other people’s lives and comments and think “wow, I’m not even good at THAT.” You ARE good at it. Practice makes perfect. If you feel like you have a hard time socializing, start to see a therapist maybe. Email me. I would LOVE to talk to you. I think you are very special and am sure that you are amazing at things that I will never be able to do. Find the things in life that you love – even the little things – and the things you’re good at, or don’t even know you’re good at yet (try things out) and you will see how valuable you are to the world. I care about you. Everyone on this website cares about you.
I want you to sit at your computer right now and make a really weird noise and motion or dance move.
You are the only person in the world who has and ever will make that move. That makes you unique – and that’s only one reason why you are.
If you would like to talk to me please feel free to email me. My email is frozenmangos1@gmail.com
Stay strong. We’re all rooting for you.
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I definitely understand the anxiety about face-to-face communication. I’ve had a problem with that for as long as I can remember. It’s hard for me to think of the right words in just the right amount of time. I pause as I struggle to think of how I want to word things, and then I get self-conscious about how long I’m taking.
It’s a lot easier for me to communicate through writing. I can take as long as I want to formulate the right words or the right expressions, and nobody has a clue how long it takes. Big relief!
So places like this are a breath of fresh air, so to speak. We all have something in common here, even if we express it in different ways.
I’ve only been here for a few days, and so far the vast majority of the people have been polite and considerate. So hang in there, I think we’re in good company. 🙂
I appreciate your outlook. It is not pessimistic. It is REAL. It is authentic. It is genuine.
The phrase you used that I especially like is “fluid connection”. In my opinion, there is very little actual conversation among people. Most dialogue (in person, social media) is shallow, and it’s forgotten by the next day.
Just about everyone is giving just a few seconds of attention before they are on to the next task. But, really, how much attention can one person give to 100 people and 500 issues? Not much. We as a society spread ourselves way too thin.