They say it gets better and I want to believe that. I have fought with depression for so many years I hardly remember before I had it anymore. Yes there are times when I dont feel like blowing my head off. But time after time the feeling comes back. It seems to be my brains “go to” thought whenever Im even the slightest bit upset. I have tried depression medication…. Many kinds…. But they dont seem to do anything for me but make me a tired zombie. I stopped trying to find one that works about 8 years ago.
My husband cant grasp why I feel the way I do, Heck I dont know why I feel this way half of the time. People without depression just cant understand. He thinks he must be doing something wrong and feels upset when I talk about how I feel, so I have just stopped talking to him about it. Why upset him over and over again.
Well like I said I do have some good days and while Im having a bad one I try and tell myself it will get better. I will feel ok again. But for how long do I have to keep saying this to myself. How many times will the depression rear its ugly head over and over again. Im tired, so tired. I just want to know that the light at the end of the tunnel isnt a train.
Does anyone feel the same way. Or am I totally alone in this